Tuesday, November 24, 2009
just washed up, was supp to go to macs with Winfred cuz he stays 30 secs away. =.= BUT I THINK HE'S FREAKING ASLEEP OMG.
fedup, it was him last night who kept reminding me to wake up on time GRR.
but whatever i rather stay home and surf the net x)
there was a number of things going on over the weekend and since i last posted ;)
but i guess most are resolved, and i'm glad i finally talked to one of my friend i havent talked to for days and weeks,
though i'm happy i talked, i aint happy.
well i cant tell why, but i aint happy, period.
i am quite tired, considering that i've been sleeeping late and waking up early, (if 11am is considered early), but somehow i'm really beat.
i had a weird dream last night, cant help but to think about it. sigh.
cant wait to get up onto the airplane(: taking A380 wheee!:D haha gonna be fun, well i hope, it's just a 4 days trip, REALLLLYYYYY SHORTTTTTTT laaaa but im gonna enjoy myself to the max and come back with thousands of photos(:
wont be able to meet KT before i go, that's freaking sad. but when im back im definitely gonna meet ya darling!!!!!!:D gonna get you someth xD HEHEHHEE
i'll miss you over the 4 days xD
i'm growing to like akon's smack that, though it's abit yesterday, or antique already, x) but its nice la, akon's R&B songs are actually quite nice.
fedup, it was him last night who kept reminding me to wake up on time GRR.
but whatever i rather stay home and surf the net x)
there was a number of things going on over the weekend and since i last posted ;)
but i guess most are resolved, and i'm glad i finally talked to one of my friend i havent talked to for days and weeks,
though i'm happy i talked, i aint happy.
well i cant tell why, but i aint happy, period.
i am quite tired, considering that i've been sleeeping late and waking up early, (if 11am is considered early), but somehow i'm really beat.
i had a weird dream last night, cant help but to think about it. sigh.
cant wait to get up onto the airplane(: taking A380 wheee!:D haha gonna be fun, well i hope, it's just a 4 days trip, REALLLLYYYYY SHORTTTTTTT laaaa but im gonna enjoy myself to the max and come back with thousands of photos(:
wont be able to meet KT before i go, that's freaking sad. but when im back im definitely gonna meet ya darling!!!!!!:D gonna get you someth xD HEHEHHEE
i'll miss you over the 4 days xD
i'm growing to like akon's smack that, though it's abit yesterday, or antique already, x) but its nice la, akon's R&B songs are actually quite nice.
8:50 AM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
great day at wild wild wet ytd! x)
hahaha it was really fun, considering that the people i hang out with are fun-going! x)
well supposed to go to sam's chalet but his friends are like almost freakily scary x.x
anyways it was damn fun, hahaha we went bowling, SHIT LAH HUIRU BEAT ME x((
and like, IM THE LOUSIEST SCORER):
stupid sam anyhow throw also strike! lester also damn good lah, huiru also anyhowanyhow den get spare, and me always gutter):
but wildwildwet was undeniably fun, think this is like the 3rd tme saying it, but its like really fun(4th), haha we went on rides multiple times, EXCEPT THE 4 STOREYS ONE SCARYY. cause huiru didnt want to sit on the opp side, so i sat, and imagine urself fall back 4 storeys, its like damn scary. x)
and was like HOT and COLD haha.
so funny, and i think i havent had such fun in months, weeks, days.
sadly we didn't have any photo taken, and thank God sam didnt cry this time when we bullied him x) HAHAH WHEE.
post again ltr((:
hahaha it was really fun, considering that the people i hang out with are fun-going! x)
well supposed to go to sam's chalet but his friends are like almost freakily scary x.x
anyways it was damn fun, hahaha we went bowling, SHIT LAH HUIRU BEAT ME x((
and like, IM THE LOUSIEST SCORER):
stupid sam anyhow throw also strike! lester also damn good lah, huiru also anyhowanyhow den get spare, and me always gutter):
but wildwildwet was undeniably fun, think this is like the 3rd tme saying it, but its like really fun(4th), haha we went on rides multiple times, EXCEPT THE 4 STOREYS ONE SCARYY. cause huiru didnt want to sit on the opp side, so i sat, and imagine urself fall back 4 storeys, its like damn scary. x)
and was like HOT and COLD haha.
so funny, and i think i havent had such fun in months, weeks, days.
sadly we didn't have any photo taken, and thank God sam didnt cry this time when we bullied him x) HAHAH WHEE.
post again ltr((:
11:05 AM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
got a head spinning start today.
got up quite late, i set TEN alarms, from 7.05 onwards, 5 mins interval.
but i stupidly shut each and everyone off and slept till 1030 omg!
and i had to bathe, make up, get dressed, get my stuff and leave.
missed breakfast, thus i was GIDDY much so i got some ice lemon tea into my water bottle just incase im too low on glucose.
walked out of my house and rmbed i left my fone on my study desk=.= gosh i had to go back and collect it.
had this really intolerable urge to puke but i didnt. hahaha thank God i reached ion in time. met up with ShiBin for lunch, and aft that KT for lunch AGAIN. haha was super full=.=
and apparently im quite broke so i didn't do a spree heh. got invited to sam's chalet tml, and i think we're spending quite a bit there with the movies and bowling, so ya better not spend so much today.
so over the weekends, i got this pretty pretty diary from korea. okay it AINT JUST PRETTY ITS FREAKING NICE. it's like almost 30 dollars, it's not exactly a diary, its a schedule book! and i got this sanrio datebook, it's like cheaper cause dont have like extra spaces for a particular day, more of like monthly kinda thing, it's 10bucks. i had 2 more reserved, one is my melody and the other is little twin stars. its so irresistable, i dunno if im gonna go buy it though, cause its like POINTLESS WHY WOULD I NEED 2 MORE FREAKING DATEBOOK RIGHT, i thought of it as christmas pressie, but my friend who likes this kinda things... isn't my friend anymore, or at least it is like that to her.
okay and i saw this thing about maxi dresses(REALLY LONG DRESSES) and i kinda fell in love with it, so mummy bought me 2. n when i reached home, my mummy and i wondered, when would i ever get to wear this super long dress, it looks wayyy TOO formal. so i concluded that i'll wear it when im pregnant in future.
alright, God blessed me enjoyment and fun over the holidays but im damn slack, too slack. i have to work hard, do my holiday assignments b4 i go to HK.
oh and the 2 modelling agencies called again, pressing me to quickly go for interview and they're gonna help me take fotos for my portfolio, i cant believe this is happening to me. but till now i havent decided which one i should go to, need help from Winfred to get my model stuff right.
well im hopeful about my future(: hehe.
im off to watch GOSSIP GIRL(SEE KT CORRECTED!(:)
got up quite late, i set TEN alarms, from 7.05 onwards, 5 mins interval.
but i stupidly shut each and everyone off and slept till 1030 omg!
and i had to bathe, make up, get dressed, get my stuff and leave.
missed breakfast, thus i was GIDDY much so i got some ice lemon tea into my water bottle just incase im too low on glucose.
walked out of my house and rmbed i left my fone on my study desk=.= gosh i had to go back and collect it.
had this really intolerable urge to puke but i didnt. hahaha thank God i reached ion in time. met up with ShiBin for lunch, and aft that KT for lunch AGAIN. haha was super full=.=
and apparently im quite broke so i didn't do a spree heh. got invited to sam's chalet tml, and i think we're spending quite a bit there with the movies and bowling, so ya better not spend so much today.
so over the weekends, i got this pretty pretty diary from korea. okay it AINT JUST PRETTY ITS FREAKING NICE. it's like almost 30 dollars, it's not exactly a diary, its a schedule book! and i got this sanrio datebook, it's like cheaper cause dont have like extra spaces for a particular day, more of like monthly kinda thing, it's 10bucks. i had 2 more reserved, one is my melody and the other is little twin stars. its so irresistable, i dunno if im gonna go buy it though, cause its like POINTLESS WHY WOULD I NEED 2 MORE FREAKING DATEBOOK RIGHT, i thought of it as christmas pressie, but my friend who likes this kinda things... isn't my friend anymore, or at least it is like that to her.
okay and i saw this thing about maxi dresses(REALLY LONG DRESSES) and i kinda fell in love with it, so mummy bought me 2. n when i reached home, my mummy and i wondered, when would i ever get to wear this super long dress, it looks wayyy TOO formal. so i concluded that i'll wear it when im pregnant in future.
alright, God blessed me enjoyment and fun over the holidays but im damn slack, too slack. i have to work hard, do my holiday assignments b4 i go to HK.
oh and the 2 modelling agencies called again, pressing me to quickly go for interview and they're gonna help me take fotos for my portfolio, i cant believe this is happening to me. but till now i havent decided which one i should go to, need help from Winfred to get my model stuff right.
well im hopeful about my future(: hehe.
im off to watch GOSSIP GIRL(SEE KT CORRECTED!(:)
4:23 PM
Friday, November 13, 2009
so it is another day with dark clouds and pouring rain.
the weather makes me so inevitably weary.
sunshine, however doesnt work my day out either.
maybe i should hide away in someplace where weather's out of sight.
anyway i had a great day packing my wondrously messed up cupboard that my mum and i cleared barely a week ago.
grandma helped, and she was great at it, i swear my cupboard looks wayy neater.
got hooked to gossip girls, the show is just so fairytale-ly perfect.
it's where high society crosses each other and how the higher classes lives.
it just always wonders me that the caucasians are actually so different as compared to the asians.
they lead a different live, be it privileged or not, they still lead a different life, they seem to live with no woes, and, really, much happier?
well mayb they're taught the liberal way of life.
but the conservative asians, well. are different.
i've difficulty focusing nowadays, i cant even persuade myself to get my butt onto my chair and get my mind on those books.
its tough, and worse off now that some people just led me on to thinking that there would be a better tomoro. WHEN THERE IS NOT.
it's just so tough to have yourself imagine how your tomoro will be like every night before you turn in.
it's like you have to maintain mental stability in order not to screw your day!
how's that possible with every second, you have to get your hands onto someth so as to not think about that screwed thingy.
ugh. alright lets think about someth more positive. like what, having to study tonight? ugh no that's so not.
alright i guess i'm looking forward to my hair treatment with mummy tomoro, thank God it's just once a month otherwise i'd totally freeze to death soon in the salon.
well if going out with mummy mean anything, that totally is shopping(:
ahh mummy say she'd get me boots for hongkong! YAY MUMMY(:
i shall limit my spending tomoro, not gonna buy more than 2 items.
ohoh and im so interested in starting my own fashion line!
its like i get to design my clothes, and sell it. wont it be great?((:
well i'm heading overseas to study fashion once im done with my university, and my parents agreed to it!!! :D
alrighty,
guess im heading back to gossipgirls.
the weather makes me so inevitably weary.
sunshine, however doesnt work my day out either.
maybe i should hide away in someplace where weather's out of sight.
anyway i had a great day packing my wondrously messed up cupboard that my mum and i cleared barely a week ago.
grandma helped, and she was great at it, i swear my cupboard looks wayy neater.
got hooked to gossip girls, the show is just so fairytale-ly perfect.
it's where high society crosses each other and how the higher classes lives.
it just always wonders me that the caucasians are actually so different as compared to the asians.
they lead a different live, be it privileged or not, they still lead a different life, they seem to live with no woes, and, really, much happier?
well mayb they're taught the liberal way of life.
but the conservative asians, well. are different.
i've difficulty focusing nowadays, i cant even persuade myself to get my butt onto my chair and get my mind on those books.
its tough, and worse off now that some people just led me on to thinking that there would be a better tomoro. WHEN THERE IS NOT.
it's just so tough to have yourself imagine how your tomoro will be like every night before you turn in.
it's like you have to maintain mental stability in order not to screw your day!
how's that possible with every second, you have to get your hands onto someth so as to not think about that screwed thingy.
ugh. alright lets think about someth more positive. like what, having to study tonight? ugh no that's so not.
alright i guess i'm looking forward to my hair treatment with mummy tomoro, thank God it's just once a month otherwise i'd totally freeze to death soon in the salon.
well if going out with mummy mean anything, that totally is shopping(:
ahh mummy say she'd get me boots for hongkong! YAY MUMMY(:
i shall limit my spending tomoro, not gonna buy more than 2 items.
ohoh and im so interested in starting my own fashion line!
its like i get to design my clothes, and sell it. wont it be great?((:
well i'm heading overseas to study fashion once im done with my university, and my parents agreed to it!!! :D
alrighty,
guess im heading back to gossipgirls.
5:32 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Ah i just woke up sleeping like a pig, it was tiring, the past few days.
Monday was like.. supposed to mug but didnt :P hehe.
Tuesday was OLEVEL CHINESE thank God i'm still alive and kicking now; and had lunch at parkway with mummy and ken, and then dinner at suntec city with Liying((: hahaha we were both dressed really... (erm) casually, considering that suntec city was like somehow a last min decision? and we had pizza hut for dinner, darn we cant finish that 6pc pizza! its alright, we actually wanted niwa sushi aft pizza hut x) but we gave up that thought. Then we went speed shopping! haha she practically had to pull me outta sanrio cause she has sch e next day.
Wednesday was spent at the dentist in the morning, and at orchard ion in the noon. with KYUNGTAE :D haha okay some irritating humans thought that we were lesbians or someth wth. just because i was pulling her wrist and making her run across the mall to this really beautiful(but stinky) patisserie! ughh they were like "DID YOU SEE THAT???(then turn at stare at us)" and i stopped and ask KT "DID YOU HEAR THAT????" but we did not stare at them la xD anyway we ate at the food area, ate gyoza and some rice with some chicken thing from japan. the pastries are like soooooooooo tempting but i had no space in my tummy): so i decided to jus dabao renaldo's eclairs(YUMMY) and a few strudels(YUMMMIERRR). Then i figured my way to the other side of the bus stop since kt was in a rush, and i really was lost-.-
so i asked for help from this salesgirl in a shop, and she was really really nice! she had super long and pretty hair, and she brought me ALL THE WAY to the bus stop which is like, from her shop, walk straight turn left go down escalator walk straight turn right walk straight, turn right and then walk all the way and turn right again and up the escalator.
tadah. busstop.
okay. wat a trip man. haha this week was like shopping spree revenge. cause i hadnt been doing much shopping during the preexams, and duh postexams ive been too busy worrying about telling my parents my results, no mood shop.
but now im done with both, SHOPPING YAY.
there's this shop called clubmarc, they're like having pre season sale, its damn cool like 3 for 49 bucks?! and subsequent ones are 10bucks each. of course my mum and i didnt let this deal go xD we went in and SHOPPED and TRIED ON and DISCARDED and SELECTED hahaha and our total rounded up to 160. i was calculating the original overall price, and it was like 400 plus! omg its more than a 50percent off.
then i went to my favourite dress shop, ztyle at city hall, its not really a popular brand la, but its nice enough for their price, they're hvng this promo, original price of a dress is 70bucks, and now it's only like 28?! wow. hahahaa so i bought dresses there too(:
and and and! my mum and i were at fish&co last weekend, then she was like, EH DEAR HERE GOT STARBUCKS? haha and i was quite shocked too cause it was some extended hallway or someth, so we went in, apparently my mum likes starbuck's bakery area. then i came across this section with so beautiful and lovely mugs, and gifts!! there was like water bottles for sale, and tumblers with pretty snowmans, penguins, christmas trees. den my mum turned and ask, why, u want ah? then i got to choose 2 designs! the penguin one was so simple and sweet. so i selected the red one(: and i was indecisive between the penguin fishing one or the christmas decor which is in red, but upon consideration i thought that christmas decor one was not very nice, its too flashy and too "tu qi" le; red was supp to be sexy and classy, but that design on the red seemed to bring the whole bottle down, it jus look like some random piece of paper they printed to put inside the tumbler. so i bought e other 2. and over the past few days, i went to diff starbucks and i realised that the designs i bought were no longer there, well i wanted to buy one more for my cousin): but the cuter ones were gone.
got story book too!(: The Ivy Chronicles, and bought this Cinnamoroll 2010diary it is so lovable and PRETTY! ohoh and i bought this hellokitty pouch, it IS PRETTY AND CUTE omg i couldnt resist it, but it was damn exp. its like 40bucks, kinda waste of money but i really couldnt resist the temptation!!! ahh i have this soft spot for colourful and sweet things like macarons, pastries, etc. kyungtae knows best x)
thank God for blessing me with lavishes that some people in this world wouldn't actually ever have in their lifetime, though they may be financially poor, i pray that they be rich in their faith in God and throughout their lives may God bless them and be with them always. In fact in our type of average class world, or maybe jus a little higher than average, there's a group of people who's much worse off than the financially poor ones. They are enriched by God, yet they do not act it out, it's just words they say, and in fact in their hearts they're not working towards the way He wants it. By acting to be a all rounded christian, or by THINKING you're one is not gonna work. Think of how your attitude towards others should change, because i dont think God is teaching you to be like this, and if He is, you can already be on par with Him isn't it? As a matter of fact, i actually think these group of people are just making use of Him.
Alright i cannot stand people who thinks they're all Godly and stuff when they are SO NOT. well if ure gonna say im not too so who am i to say such things? then im gonna tell you that HELLO AT LEAST I ADMIT THAT IM NOT PERFECT AND I DONT GO AROUND ACTING OH-SO-HOLY. if your attitude now is what God's teaching you, i wonder which part of His words told you to bear grudge? which part of it taught you to assume! well anyway i was just voicing out someth ive kept for a period of time in my heart.
alright i took pics of my purchases(:
ugh but there's someth wrong with my blogger. x( fine i'll upload another time, off to gossip girls now~
Monday was like.. supposed to mug but didnt :P hehe.
Tuesday was OLEVEL CHINESE thank God i'm still alive and kicking now; and had lunch at parkway with mummy and ken, and then dinner at suntec city with Liying((: hahaha we were both dressed really... (erm) casually, considering that suntec city was like somehow a last min decision? and we had pizza hut for dinner, darn we cant finish that 6pc pizza! its alright, we actually wanted niwa sushi aft pizza hut x) but we gave up that thought. Then we went speed shopping! haha she practically had to pull me outta sanrio cause she has sch e next day.
Wednesday was spent at the dentist in the morning, and at orchard ion in the noon. with KYUNGTAE :D haha okay some irritating humans thought that we were lesbians or someth wth. just because i was pulling her wrist and making her run across the mall to this really beautiful(but stinky) patisserie! ughh they were like "DID YOU SEE THAT???(then turn at stare at us)" and i stopped and ask KT "DID YOU HEAR THAT????" but we did not stare at them la xD anyway we ate at the food area, ate gyoza and some rice with some chicken thing from japan. the pastries are like soooooooooo tempting but i had no space in my tummy): so i decided to jus dabao renaldo's eclairs(YUMMY) and a few strudels(YUMMMIERRR). Then i figured my way to the other side of the bus stop since kt was in a rush, and i really was lost-.-
so i asked for help from this salesgirl in a shop, and she was really really nice! she had super long and pretty hair, and she brought me ALL THE WAY to the bus stop which is like, from her shop, walk straight turn left go down escalator walk straight turn right walk straight, turn right and then walk all the way and turn right again and up the escalator.
tadah. busstop.
okay. wat a trip man. haha this week was like shopping spree revenge. cause i hadnt been doing much shopping during the preexams, and duh postexams ive been too busy worrying about telling my parents my results, no mood shop.
but now im done with both, SHOPPING YAY.
there's this shop called clubmarc, they're like having pre season sale, its damn cool like 3 for 49 bucks?! and subsequent ones are 10bucks each. of course my mum and i didnt let this deal go xD we went in and SHOPPED and TRIED ON and DISCARDED and SELECTED hahaha and our total rounded up to 160. i was calculating the original overall price, and it was like 400 plus! omg its more than a 50percent off.
then i went to my favourite dress shop, ztyle at city hall, its not really a popular brand la, but its nice enough for their price, they're hvng this promo, original price of a dress is 70bucks, and now it's only like 28?! wow. hahahaa so i bought dresses there too(:
and and and! my mum and i were at fish&co last weekend, then she was like, EH DEAR HERE GOT STARBUCKS? haha and i was quite shocked too cause it was some extended hallway or someth, so we went in, apparently my mum likes starbuck's bakery area. then i came across this section with so beautiful and lovely mugs, and gifts!! there was like water bottles for sale, and tumblers with pretty snowmans, penguins, christmas trees. den my mum turned and ask, why, u want ah? then i got to choose 2 designs! the penguin one was so simple and sweet. so i selected the red one(: and i was indecisive between the penguin fishing one or the christmas decor which is in red, but upon consideration i thought that christmas decor one was not very nice, its too flashy and too "tu qi" le; red was supp to be sexy and classy, but that design on the red seemed to bring the whole bottle down, it jus look like some random piece of paper they printed to put inside the tumbler. so i bought e other 2. and over the past few days, i went to diff starbucks and i realised that the designs i bought were no longer there, well i wanted to buy one more for my cousin): but the cuter ones were gone.
got story book too!(: The Ivy Chronicles, and bought this Cinnamoroll 2010diary it is so lovable and PRETTY! ohoh and i bought this hellokitty pouch, it IS PRETTY AND CUTE omg i couldnt resist it, but it was damn exp. its like 40bucks, kinda waste of money but i really couldnt resist the temptation!!! ahh i have this soft spot for colourful and sweet things like macarons, pastries, etc. kyungtae knows best x)
thank God for blessing me with lavishes that some people in this world wouldn't actually ever have in their lifetime, though they may be financially poor, i pray that they be rich in their faith in God and throughout their lives may God bless them and be with them always. In fact in our type of average class world, or maybe jus a little higher than average, there's a group of people who's much worse off than the financially poor ones. They are enriched by God, yet they do not act it out, it's just words they say, and in fact in their hearts they're not working towards the way He wants it. By acting to be a all rounded christian, or by THINKING you're one is not gonna work. Think of how your attitude towards others should change, because i dont think God is teaching you to be like this, and if He is, you can already be on par with Him isn't it? As a matter of fact, i actually think these group of people are just making use of Him.
Alright i cannot stand people who thinks they're all Godly and stuff when they are SO NOT. well if ure gonna say im not too so who am i to say such things? then im gonna tell you that HELLO AT LEAST I ADMIT THAT IM NOT PERFECT AND I DONT GO AROUND ACTING OH-SO-HOLY. if your attitude now is what God's teaching you, i wonder which part of His words told you to bear grudge? which part of it taught you to assume! well anyway i was just voicing out someth ive kept for a period of time in my heart.
alright i took pics of my purchases(:
ugh but there's someth wrong with my blogger. x( fine i'll upload another time, off to gossip girls now~
btw kt, that picture was artistically taken by me okay x) it's named
"the parallel of glamness" x)
11:28 AM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
alright..this days, things are getting real hectic.
i'm promoted to sec4, but i dont know if i should drop my amaths, or else if i should combine my sciences to lighten my load.
sigh, well i think i should start my revision, Mrs Tan assured me that i dont have to drop a maths, neither do i have to combine my science!!! im so happy. really happy that i have a chance to renew myself.
but then,
now now now.
must worry about telling my parents my results. tomoro i'm going to counselling, to see how to break the news to my parents. sighhhhhhhh)): I MUST DO IT ASAP.
Dear God,
i pray that u could help me to get my parents to understand my feelings, and how much hard work i put in. Love You Daddy in heaven(:
ytd went out with waisze and aish(:
haha! we were supp to go to marina sq, so me and waisze met there first, but guess what! AISHWARYA HAVE TO JUS ASK US TO GO BACK TO MARINE PARADE LIBRARY! AIYOYO. so we went back, it was so fun, we were laughing like right from the beginning to the end of the study, haha! we kept snatching away ash's potato wedges xD and we took her SPECS AND SHE KEPT BEGGING FOR IT!!! hahah they're such a funny pair, but Hoileng couldnt make it): she was taking care of POPIAH TAN at home x)
it's so funnyyy. there's just wayy too many hilarious things to type, but anyway, 2 model agencies called me! :D i felt happy. i was supposed to go for a shoot ytd in the morning at 9 at Kallang, but i couldnt make it!!! UGH stupid lah i had to take a cab down to simei to pay my doc bills): however one thing that brightened my day, another model agent called to tell me she would want me to take up a shoot for a photographer. its so coolllllllll! she asked me to quote a price, but i didnt dare so i said i leave it to her. alright, but i'm not gonna be into modelling for the time being, i'm new at it, so i'm sure i need some time to master the basics before i go serious into it. and since i'm short of time to study, i should leave them aside till i tell my mum about my results. (oh im gonna start working on my height, although i'd never believe they actually didn't mind about my braces, and my height!)
my new table is delivered(: it's GLASSY x) haha now im motivated to study x)
well, i guess i should go for my dinner now, seeya!
i'm promoted to sec4, but i dont know if i should drop my amaths, or else if i should combine my sciences to lighten my load.
sigh, well i think i should start my revision, Mrs Tan assured me that i dont have to drop a maths, neither do i have to combine my science!!! im so happy. really happy that i have a chance to renew myself.
but then,
now now now.
must worry about telling my parents my results. tomoro i'm going to counselling, to see how to break the news to my parents. sighhhhhhhh)): I MUST DO IT ASAP.
Dear God,
i pray that u could help me to get my parents to understand my feelings, and how much hard work i put in. Love You Daddy in heaven(:
ytd went out with waisze and aish(:
haha! we were supp to go to marina sq, so me and waisze met there first, but guess what! AISHWARYA HAVE TO JUS ASK US TO GO BACK TO MARINE PARADE LIBRARY! AIYOYO. so we went back, it was so fun, we were laughing like right from the beginning to the end of the study, haha! we kept snatching away ash's potato wedges xD and we took her SPECS AND SHE KEPT BEGGING FOR IT!!! hahah they're such a funny pair, but Hoileng couldnt make it): she was taking care of POPIAH TAN at home x)
it's so funnyyy. there's just wayy too many hilarious things to type, but anyway, 2 model agencies called me! :D i felt happy. i was supposed to go for a shoot ytd in the morning at 9 at Kallang, but i couldnt make it!!! UGH stupid lah i had to take a cab down to simei to pay my doc bills): however one thing that brightened my day, another model agent called to tell me she would want me to take up a shoot for a photographer. its so coolllllllll! she asked me to quote a price, but i didnt dare so i said i leave it to her. alright, but i'm not gonna be into modelling for the time being, i'm new at it, so i'm sure i need some time to master the basics before i go serious into it. and since i'm short of time to study, i should leave them aside till i tell my mum about my results. (oh im gonna start working on my height, although i'd never believe they actually didn't mind about my braces, and my height!)
my new table is delivered(: it's GLASSY x) haha now im motivated to study x)
well, i guess i should go for my dinner now, seeya!
6:00 PM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
i'm in my NEW HOUSE WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe. alright so i had a rough morning. talk about hard labour, ME.
haha xD had to CARRY THE HEAVY LOADS UP THE STAIRS I ALMOST DIED.
ughh but its an accomplishment, the past of this week was all about scrubbing floors, cleaning cupboards, removing stains, contacting dirt. ugh gross):
and SOME major part of this wk was results, really i am still feeling damn sad.
now, i alrdy failed 3 subjs! WHYYYYYYYYYY. why did i study so hard for amaths and physics yet fail? it's SO UNFAIR.
i worry that i wont be able to suffer my parent's scolding, and i really am contemplating suicide as last resort if i really cant take the stress, thus it'd be soon since im almost overflowing and nxt sat's PTC.
UGH DAMN)):
whyy, why do i work hard and not get any improvement! its so. unfair. so so unfair.
sometimes i really wish that i could go back off to heaven, sigh. but i cant bear to leave everything behind on earth.
there's someone here that taught me the meaning of true friendship and true love. thru that person i understand LOVE is everlasting, it never fails, however ironically love is failing for me. love doesnt work out for me, yet love is developing! what in the world... because of that person love seemed to become more sacred, it cannot be brought into mutual friendships that readily anymore, it is, like one in a lifetime kinda thing. well than if that is my one in the lifetime, then i'd hv none left. oh well.
there's church for me tml, and my cousins are still around-.- they were like kicking my pillow and fightin to play my hp and my laptop. GUYS< AIYOYO.
brought my cousin down to play with bubbles(: he's quite naughty at times, but he's adorable, i thank God for blessing Melissa as one of my bestie sister, we both know we'd talk bad of each other if we are pissed with each other, and we know that is not to be blamed entirely, she talked bad about me to her friends undeniably, and i have too, many times esp when we're not happy w each other, but we never failed to get things cleared up as we know we're never perfect. and she loves my family as much, she care for them and she doesnt show a hint of fear or discrimination when my slightly slow family member is around. instead she love them as much as she cares for me as her friend, she makes jokes with them, and laugh with them, not at them. her mum cares for me as much as she cares for her(although at times a little fierce:P). that is what i say, a peaceful lover. noone will try to distract our friendship, my disabled member wouldnt, neither is her mother or any of her family. well her younger bro kinda enjoy my company too x) HER COUSINS TOO!~ x)
anyway,
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
there're many great friends around, like kyungtae, donoven, gina, huiru, hoileng, waisze, aishwarya... many others.
i want to specially thank certain ppl,
kyungtae and donoven,
for being there for me ALWAYS, even when i was thinking of suicide, you guys made so much and effort to encourage me and motivate me further, i'm stubborn, and i have every retaliation to your reasoning, yet you guys never stopped halfway but continued, thanks i love you guys.
gina, huiru,
gina ure the person i can talk to and laugh things off immediately, best sitting partner(: i still hv the precious moments pic u drew for me!(: haha thanks alot for encouraging me x)
huiru, you are, so, so, so, so, fiona's counsellor, and i really thank you so much for that, really. i'm so happy that ive such a friend, that in times of need, i just have to msg you, and no longer than 15 mins i'd get a especially long reply as to resolving my woes, i can never thank you enough for that. your msgs stopped me from tearing everytime, it actually made me reflect. thank you huiru!!!(:
hoileng, waisze, aishwarya.
i dont think u ppl will ever see this msg since u dont know ive a blog:P
but anyways, you 3, are the only ppl in 3E9 that treats me the nicest, although i only got to hang out with you guys recently, you'd never leave me out! never ever. i will always rmb the time i cried when i was talking to mrs lim, you guys actually waited for me for 45mins when you all could have left earlier, my phone vibrated thrice, and i thought it was one of you msging me to hurry up, orelse u'd be going first. however when i left school, i realised it's not, you guys didn't even rush me, i am very thankful that when i cried, waisze and aishwarya consoled me, while hoileng went to get tissue for me, thank you so much.
aishwarya you'd even treat me to bubble tea jus because i cried, you never know how touch i was.
thank you waisze for being such a good joker(: you're the funniest, and it really livens up my school term.
hoileng, ure such a great toilet partner, i swear. (: you submit to waisze's nonsensical talks with no signs of anger(:
haha xD had to CARRY THE HEAVY LOADS UP THE STAIRS I ALMOST DIED.
ughh but its an accomplishment, the past of this week was all about scrubbing floors, cleaning cupboards, removing stains, contacting dirt. ugh gross):
and SOME major part of this wk was results, really i am still feeling damn sad.
now, i alrdy failed 3 subjs! WHYYYYYYYYYY. why did i study so hard for amaths and physics yet fail? it's SO UNFAIR.
i worry that i wont be able to suffer my parent's scolding, and i really am contemplating suicide as last resort if i really cant take the stress, thus it'd be soon since im almost overflowing and nxt sat's PTC.
UGH DAMN)):
whyy, why do i work hard and not get any improvement! its so. unfair. so so unfair.
sometimes i really wish that i could go back off to heaven, sigh. but i cant bear to leave everything behind on earth.
there's someone here that taught me the meaning of true friendship and true love. thru that person i understand LOVE is everlasting, it never fails, however ironically love is failing for me. love doesnt work out for me, yet love is developing! what in the world... because of that person love seemed to become more sacred, it cannot be brought into mutual friendships that readily anymore, it is, like one in a lifetime kinda thing. well than if that is my one in the lifetime, then i'd hv none left. oh well.
there's church for me tml, and my cousins are still around-.- they were like kicking my pillow and fightin to play my hp and my laptop. GUYS< AIYOYO.
brought my cousin down to play with bubbles(: he's quite naughty at times, but he's adorable, i thank God for blessing Melissa as one of my bestie sister, we both know we'd talk bad of each other if we are pissed with each other, and we know that is not to be blamed entirely, she talked bad about me to her friends undeniably, and i have too, many times esp when we're not happy w each other, but we never failed to get things cleared up as we know we're never perfect. and she loves my family as much, she care for them and she doesnt show a hint of fear or discrimination when my slightly slow family member is around. instead she love them as much as she cares for me as her friend, she makes jokes with them, and laugh with them, not at them. her mum cares for me as much as she cares for her(although at times a little fierce:P). that is what i say, a peaceful lover. noone will try to distract our friendship, my disabled member wouldnt, neither is her mother or any of her family. well her younger bro kinda enjoy my company too x) HER COUSINS TOO!~ x)
anyway,
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
there're many great friends around, like kyungtae, donoven, gina, huiru, hoileng, waisze, aishwarya... many others.
i want to specially thank certain ppl,
kyungtae and donoven,
for being there for me ALWAYS, even when i was thinking of suicide, you guys made so much and effort to encourage me and motivate me further, i'm stubborn, and i have every retaliation to your reasoning, yet you guys never stopped halfway but continued, thanks i love you guys.
gina, huiru,
gina ure the person i can talk to and laugh things off immediately, best sitting partner(: i still hv the precious moments pic u drew for me!(: haha thanks alot for encouraging me x)
huiru, you are, so, so, so, so, fiona's counsellor, and i really thank you so much for that, really. i'm so happy that ive such a friend, that in times of need, i just have to msg you, and no longer than 15 mins i'd get a especially long reply as to resolving my woes, i can never thank you enough for that. your msgs stopped me from tearing everytime, it actually made me reflect. thank you huiru!!!(:
hoileng, waisze, aishwarya.
i dont think u ppl will ever see this msg since u dont know ive a blog:P
but anyways, you 3, are the only ppl in 3E9 that treats me the nicest, although i only got to hang out with you guys recently, you'd never leave me out! never ever. i will always rmb the time i cried when i was talking to mrs lim, you guys actually waited for me for 45mins when you all could have left earlier, my phone vibrated thrice, and i thought it was one of you msging me to hurry up, orelse u'd be going first. however when i left school, i realised it's not, you guys didn't even rush me, i am very thankful that when i cried, waisze and aishwarya consoled me, while hoileng went to get tissue for me, thank you so much.
aishwarya you'd even treat me to bubble tea jus because i cried, you never know how touch i was.
thank you waisze for being such a good joker(: you're the funniest, and it really livens up my school term.
hoileng, ure such a great toilet partner, i swear. (: you submit to waisze's nonsensical talks with no signs of anger(:
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