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2010-04-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

2010-01-04T14:39:00.002+08:00

okay, hi i'm back for the last time before o levels(:

okayyyy.

some things to clear up before moving on with the rest of the school term,

due to certain aspirations of myself,

i decided to try out modelling despite my braces and height and blablabla(shortcomings.)

so i found out that in singapore's modelling industry,

it aint about height and looks, its more about versatility and time management and responsibility, most of all interest and passion..

so of course, with my interest, i managed to find an agency whom i can cope with,

however i am not an OFFICIAL MODEL YET.

neither am i MODELLING YET.

yes, i have connections with model agencies, that's true.

yes, i went for interviews, true too.

however this doesnt present me an official status of a model, with a modelling career.

it is really nothing much, seriously anyone can just bring themselves to an agency,

and depending on how the agency sees it, its normally a yes to join them.

AND...

my olevels are coming soon, so from now till den i am not going to do anything with regards to modelling. therefore, NO i am NOT a MODEL yet.

maybe i will be one after my olevels?

maybe i will not be anymore?

that i dont know, but i will update again if i AM or AM NOT after my o's(:

with love,

FIONAAA(NOT A MODEL, I AM A FREAKING STUDENT HAVING O LEVELS THIS YEAR THATS ALL OK)

cya bloggy(:

till then,

mwuacks :D

2009-12-29T13:57:00.002+08:00

Merry belated Xmas!

and

Happy New Year in advance!

last week was great, it passed almost in a blink of an eye x)

hahaa. xmas! santa claus visited me yay.

was fun, had christmas celebration cum daddy's bdae celebration on christmas eve.

happy belated bdae daddy!

when to agpc for candlelight service, failllll??

it was like, i did not even see a single candlelight can?

whatever, but i saw some of my friends,

i was quite disappointed when i saw one of my close friends there just smile and me and continue doing her stuff with the grp cuz maybe she thinks that is more attraction-friendly rather than to come over to me to say hi?!

well at least finally i realised who really missed me.

thanks Rachel, Sarah, and a few others who talked, it made me feel like my growing up with u guys there since i was 5 yrs old, was all made worth it.

evidently as we hugged tears were like welling up):

and it was the first time i really hugged pastor Carrie for sooooooo long! it was the first time since i knew her when i was 5.

this ties.

sigh.

okay enough of the sad stuff.

(ive got loads of embarrassing stuff to add but nah xD)

haha was fun to hang out with kt at ion! srsly we're both in LOVEEEE with the gyoza there.

it is insanely perfect.

holidays are gonna be over but darn that's not gonna stop us having our gyoza there occasionally.

kinda forgotten certain things that happened last wk.

umm... oh ya! went out with huiru to taka n paragon n ion on xmas!

i realised gucci and lv has pretty bagss that are apparently not affordable for someone like me whose bank acc is currently below 50.

BUT. me and huiru saw this PRETTY OMG PRETTTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY PINK PRADA WALLET.

ughhh i so want it!):

den my mum told huiru "she crazy she already got *that* wallet she still want this?!"

den huiru said to me, YA YOU SHOULDNT WASTE MONEY ON THE WALLET*

............................................................................................................................

"YOU SHOULD BUY THE PRADA BAG INSTEAD"

den i almost fainted=.=

hahaha damn funny. den we were at raoul mummy had to collect her membership card.

the pumps were going at 50PERCENT OMGGGGGGGG!!!

i so wanted it but mummy was like "u've got enough heels".

and i replied "but nt any from raoul".

not like it worked though, but she got a pair of ballet flats its really pretty too(:

so yeah thank God for that.

ive not been getting heels in gazillion years.

nowadays im going more for shorts and miniskirts rather than dresses and heels?

used to go dressy and heely but now nah, im just going casual for my age,

cause now it kinda seems like heels and dress is too formal.

maybe in a few days time i'll change my thinking again.

bobian. teenagers are like that.

sigh ytd had to rush to a&e sgh at 10 plus, cuz brother has lump on his back that was bleeding alottt...

and then we had to wait and wait for 7 hrs. until 5am den i managed to go home n slp.

sigh im so tired...and im not feeling very well ytd n today, vomitted twice and keep sneezing n coughing.

hope i recover soon.

okie i shall go and get some rest now(:

2009-12-21T21:24:00.006+08:00

melissa's got a new pet!!
whisky eh(:
why not martini hahahahaha.
okay anyway i got its pic. its so freaking cute.
look it's 2 months old!

okay anyway, the holidays are ending so soon):
just nxt week and its a new school term!
im really worried that i wont do well.

ahhh,

[9:31:34 PM] WILLIAM ONG: no matter how you are still our lovely daughter, understand, next time cannot write those things in face book lah

[9:32:01 PM] fionaong67: yes daddy i knowww lahhh

[9:32:02 PM] fionaong67: okay lahh

cant disappoint my daddy mummy family and everyone!

anyway i decided to join ezen model agency, or shine model agency.

heard that create talents is a scam? im not sure, shine and create talents called me down for an interview,

both approved le, but im not sure about createtalents... the scam thingy is quite big on the net.

but ezen, it's more official like.

i dunno, but i feel more trust for it. :D

okay so i've to get my portfolio pics!

i got some of it already(:

but its not like PROFESSIONALLY done la. more like from freelance photographers(:

and thank you DARLING KYUNGTAE for being my makeup artist FOC.

after looking at the pics, i appreciate what u did to my eyebrows,

sry for nagging and nagging when u drew them=.=

now i appreciate it alot.

loves :D

and... to someone i shared this dream with,

many times before i accept an interview,

i contemplated calling you, in fact i picked up my phone to type ur number...

but. i didnt dare to.

i wish that one day i'll get to see US working together towards our common dream..

sigh. i really miss you sister):

i really really do miss the times.

this are some pics of the shoot(:

2009-12-01T14:29:00.002+08:00

i'm back from HK, short trip, but enjoyable one(:
i had great fun with my dad's staff and my uncle's family.
hk is sooooooooooooooooo much a shopping haven omg.
their clothes are trendy(in certain shops), and it's SO affordable.
really it may be cheap stuff but their clothes are beautiful.
though thailand, bangkok is a shopping haven as well, i would recommend hk instead.
cuz the traffic aint THAT congested, and normally u can access easily to some shopping area without taking public transport.
disneyland was quite fun, in the sense that we were lucky cause we visited it at night too since we had the 2 day pass, there was almost no queue for the rides.
okay my nerves kicked in when my cousins wanted to go on the space mountain ride.
i was almost dying and panting like a mad dog. okay exaggerated.
but anyway i was damn scared, but i got onto it and forced my eyes wide open and i realised the slopes werent steep afterall.
it was more speed and more curves rather than slopes.
so we took it twice!:D
hahaha. and one night we were brought up to the peak high up the mountain, from which we can see jackie chan's hse. it was beautiful, the scenery. but ugh i had an urgent nature's call so i had to run off to the restroom with barely enough time to enjoy the scenery):
last day of the trip, uncle's family and my family planned to wake up at 5 and meet at 630 so we can go SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG before we take flight back to sg.
so we did and everyone was damn tired, so my uncle bought half a roasted duck and brought us back to the hotel xD
okay lah, did quite a lot of shopping, and really quite alot of pictures.
now im back, gonna have to study hard for next year. no longer gonna think of anything else.
number 16 appeared quite alot of times over the trip, and quite a number of things brought back memories of a certain someone.
well i guess its best i let it go, cause only so i feel relieved. though i need you, i want you, but its best for me without you.
i wonder..
how do you learn to let go..

2009-11-24T08:50:00.003+08:00

just washed up, was supp to go to macs with Winfred cuz he stays 30 secs away. =.= BUT I THINK HE'S FREAKING ASLEEP OMG.
fedup, it was him last night who kept reminding me to wake up on time GRR.
but whatever i rather stay home and surf the net x)
there was a number of things going on over the weekend and since i last posted ;)
but i guess most are resolved, and i'm glad i finally talked to one of my friend i havent talked to for days and weeks,
though i'm happy i talked, i aint happy.
well i cant tell why, but i aint happy, period.

i am quite tired, considering that i've been sleeeping late and waking up early, (if 11am is considered early), but somehow i'm really beat.
i had a weird dream last night, cant help but to think about it. sigh.
cant wait to get up onto the airplane(: taking A380 wheee!:D haha gonna be fun, well i hope, it's just a 4 days trip, REALLLLYYYYY SHORTTTTTTT laaaa but im gonna enjoy myself to the max and come back with thousands of photos(:
wont be able to meet KT before i go, that's freaking sad. but when im back im definitely gonna meet ya darling!!!!!!:D gonna get you someth xD HEHEHHEE
i'll miss you over the 4 days xD

i'm growing to like akon's smack that, though it's abit yesterday, or antique already, x) but its nice la, akon's R&B songs are actually quite nice.

2009-11-19T11:05:00.002+08:00

great day at wild wild wet ytd! x)
hahaha it was really fun, considering that the people i hang out with are fun-going! x)
well supposed to go to sam's chalet but his friends are like almost freakily scary x.x
anyways it was damn fun, hahaha we went bowling, SHIT LAH HUIRU BEAT ME x((
and like, IM THE LOUSIEST SCORER):
stupid sam anyhow throw also strike! lester also damn good lah, huiru also anyhowanyhow den get spare, and me always gutter):
but wildwildwet was undeniably fun, think this is like the 3rd tme saying it, but its like really fun(4th), haha we went on rides multiple times, EXCEPT THE 4 STOREYS ONE SCARYY. cause huiru didnt want to sit on the opp side, so i sat, and imagine urself fall back 4 storeys, its like damn scary. x)
and was like HOT and COLD haha.
so funny, and i think i havent had such fun in months, weeks, days.
sadly we didn't have any photo taken, and thank God sam didnt cry this time when we bullied him x) HAHAH WHEE.
post again ltr((:

2009-11-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

got a head spinning start today.
got up quite late, i set TEN alarms, from 7.05 onwards, 5 mins interval.
but i stupidly shut each and everyone off and slept till 1030 omg!
and i had to bathe, make up, get dressed, get my stuff and leave.
missed breakfast, thus i was GIDDY much so i got some ice lemon tea into my water bottle just incase im too low on glucose.
walked out of my house and rmbed i left my fone on my study desk=.= gosh i had to go back and collect it.
had this really intolerable urge to puke but i didnt. hahaha thank God i reached ion in time. met up with ShiBin for lunch, and aft that KT for lunch AGAIN. haha was super full=.=

and apparently im quite broke so i didn't do a spree heh. got invited to sam's chalet tml, and i think we're spending quite a bit there with the movies and bowling, so ya better not spend so much today.

so over the weekends, i got this pretty pretty diary from korea. okay it AINT JUST PRETTY ITS FREAKING NICE. it's like almost 30 dollars, it's not exactly a diary, its a schedule book! and i got this sanrio datebook, it's like cheaper cause dont have like extra spaces for a particular day, more of like monthly kinda thing, it's 10bucks. i had 2 more reserved, one is my melody and the other is little twin stars. its so irresistable, i dunno if im gonna go buy it though, cause its like POINTLESS WHY WOULD I NEED 2 MORE FREAKING DATEBOOK RIGHT, i thought of it as christmas pressie, but my friend who likes this kinda things... isn't my friend anymore, or at least it is like that to her.

okay and i saw this thing about maxi dresses(REALLY LONG DRESSES) and i kinda fell in love with it, so mummy bought me 2. n when i reached home, my mummy and i wondered, when would i ever get to wear this super long dress, it looks wayyy TOO formal. so i concluded that i'll wear it when im pregnant in future.

alright, God blessed me enjoyment and fun over the holidays but im damn slack, too slack. i have to work hard, do my holiday assignments b4 i go to HK.

oh and the 2 modelling agencies called again, pressing me to quickly go for interview and they're gonna help me take fotos for my portfolio, i cant believe this is happening to me. but till now i havent decided which one i should go to, need help from Winfred to get my model stuff right.
well im hopeful about my future(: hehe.

im off to watch GOSSIP GIRL(SEE KT CORRECTED!(:)

2009-11-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

so it is another day with dark clouds and pouring rain.
the weather makes me so inevitably weary.
sunshine, however doesnt work my day out either.
maybe i should hide away in someplace where weather's out of sight.
anyway i had a great day packing my wondrously messed up cupboard that my mum and i cleared barely a week ago.
grandma helped, and she was great at it, i swear my cupboard looks wayy neater.
got hooked to gossip girls, the show is just so fairytale-ly perfect.
it's where high society crosses each other and how the higher classes lives.

it just always wonders me that the caucasians are actually so different as compared to the asians.
they lead a different live, be it privileged or not, they still lead a different life, they seem to live with no woes, and, really, much happier?
well mayb they're taught the liberal way of life.
but the conservative asians, well. are different.

i've difficulty focusing nowadays, i cant even persuade myself to get my butt onto my chair and get my mind on those books.
its tough, and worse off now that some people just led me on to thinking that there would be a better tomoro. WHEN THERE IS NOT.
it's just so tough to have yourself imagine how your tomoro will be like every night before you turn in.
it's like you have to maintain mental stability in order not to screw your day!
how's that possible with every second, you have to get your hands onto someth so as to not think about that screwed thingy.

ugh. alright lets think about someth more positive. like what, having to study tonight? ugh no that's so not.
alright i guess i'm looking forward to my hair treatment with mummy tomoro, thank God it's just once a month otherwise i'd totally freeze to death soon in the salon.
well if going out with mummy mean anything, that totally is shopping(:
ahh mummy say she'd get me boots for hongkong! YAY MUMMY(:
i shall limit my spending tomoro, not gonna buy more than 2 items.

ohoh and im so interested in starting my own fashion line!
its like i get to design my clothes, and sell it. wont it be great?((:
well i'm heading overseas to study fashion once im done with my university, and my parents agreed to it!!! :D
alrighty,
guess im heading back to gossipgirls.

2009-11-12T11:28:00.005+08:00

Ah i just woke up sleeping like a pig, it was tiring, the past few days.

Monday was like.. supposed to mug but didnt :P hehe.

Tuesday was OLEVEL CHINESE thank God i'm still alive and kicking now; and had lunch at parkway with mummy and ken, and then dinner at suntec city with Liying((: hahaha we were both dressed really... (erm) casually, considering that suntec city was like somehow a last min decision? and we had pizza hut for dinner, darn we cant finish that 6pc pizza! its alright, we actually wanted niwa sushi aft pizza hut x) but we gave up that thought. Then we went speed shopping! haha she practically had to pull me outta sanrio cause she has sch e next day.

Wednesday was spent at the dentist in the morning, and at orchard ion in the noon. with KYUNGTAE :D haha okay some irritating humans thought that we were lesbians or someth wth. just because i was pulling her wrist and making her run across the mall to this really beautiful(but stinky) patisserie! ughh they were like "DID YOU SEE THAT???(then turn at stare at us)" and i stopped and ask KT "DID YOU HEAR THAT????" but we did not stare at them la xD anyway we ate at the food area, ate gyoza and some rice with some chicken thing from japan. the pastries are like soooooooooo tempting but i had no space in my tummy): so i decided to jus dabao renaldo's eclairs(YUMMY) and a few strudels(YUMMMIERRR). Then i figured my way to the other side of the bus stop since kt was in a rush, and i really was lost-.-

so i asked for help from this salesgirl in a shop, and she was really really nice! she had super long and pretty hair, and she brought me ALL THE WAY to the bus stop which is like, from her shop, walk straight turn left go down escalator walk straight turn right walk straight, turn right and then walk all the way and turn right again and up the escalator.

tadah. busstop.

okay. wat a trip man. haha this week was like shopping spree revenge. cause i hadnt been doing much shopping during the preexams, and duh postexams ive been too busy worrying about telling my parents my results, no mood shop.
but now im done with both, SHOPPING YAY.

there's this shop called clubmarc, they're like having pre season sale, its damn cool like 3 for 49 bucks?! and subsequent ones are 10bucks each. of course my mum and i didnt let this deal go xD we went in and SHOPPED and TRIED ON and DISCARDED and SELECTED hahaha and our total rounded up to 160. i was calculating the original overall price, and it was like 400 plus! omg its more than a 50percent off.
then i went to my favourite dress shop, ztyle at city hall, its not really a popular brand la, but its nice enough for their price, they're hvng this promo, original price of a dress is 70bucks, and now it's only like 28?! wow. hahahaa so i bought dresses there too(:

and and and! my mum and i were at fish&co last weekend, then she was like, EH DEAR HERE GOT STARBUCKS? haha and i was quite shocked too cause it was some extended hallway or someth, so we went in, apparently my mum likes starbuck's bakery area. then i came across this section with so beautiful and lovely mugs, and gifts!! there was like water bottles for sale, and tumblers with pretty snowmans, penguins, christmas trees. den my mum turned and ask, why, u want ah? then i got to choose 2 designs! the penguin one was so simple and sweet. so i selected the red one(: and i was indecisive between the penguin fishing one or the christmas decor which is in red, but upon consideration i thought that christmas decor one was not very nice, its too flashy and too "tu qi" le; red was supp to be sexy and classy, but that design on the red seemed to bring the whole bottle down, it jus look like some random piece of paper they printed to put inside the tumbler. so i bought e other 2. and over the past few days, i went to diff starbucks and i realised that the designs i bought were no longer there, well i wanted to buy one more for my cousin): but the cuter ones were gone.

got story book too!(: The Ivy Chronicles, and bought this Cinnamoroll 2010diary it is so lovable and PRETTY! ohoh and i bought this hellokitty pouch, it IS PRETTY AND CUTE omg i couldnt resist it, but it was damn exp. its like 40bucks, kinda waste of money but i really couldnt resist the temptation!!! ahh i have this soft spot for colourful and sweet things like macarons, pastries, etc. kyungtae knows best x)

thank God for blessing me with lavishes that some people in this world wouldn't actually ever have in their lifetime, though they may be financially poor, i pray that they be rich in their faith in God and throughout their lives may God bless them and be with them always. In fact in our type of average class world, or maybe jus a little higher than average, there's a group of people who's much worse off than the financially poor ones. They are enriched by God, yet they do not act it out, it's just words they say, and in fact in their hearts they're not working towards the way He wants it. By acting to be a all rounded christian, or by THINKING you're one is not gonna work. Think of how your attitude towards others should change, because i dont think God is teaching you to be like this, and if He is, you can already be on par with Him isn't it? As a matter of fact, i actually think these group of people are just making use of Him.

Alright i cannot stand people who thinks they're all Godly and stuff when they are SO NOT. well if ure gonna say im not too so who am i to say such things? then im gonna tell you that HELLO AT LEAST I ADMIT THAT IM NOT PERFECT AND I DONT GO AROUND ACTING OH-SO-HOLY. if your attitude now is what God's teaching you, i wonder which part of His words told you to bear grudge? which part of it taught you to assume! well anyway i was just voicing out someth ive kept for a period of time in my heart.

alright i took pics of my purchases(:

ugh but there's someth wrong with my blogger. x( fine i'll upload another time, off to gossip girls now~

btw kt, that picture was artistically taken by me okay x) it's named
"the parallel of glamness" x)

2009-10-28T18:00:00.002+08:00

alright..this days, things are getting real hectic.
i'm promoted to sec4, but i dont know if i should drop my amaths, or else if i should combine my sciences to lighten my load.
sigh, well i think i should start my revision, Mrs Tan assured me that i dont have to drop a maths, neither do i have to combine my science!!! im so happy. really happy that i have a chance to renew myself.
but then,
now now now.
must worry about telling my parents my results. tomoro i'm going to counselling, to see how to break the news to my parents. sighhhhhhhh)): I MUST DO IT ASAP.
Dear God,
i pray that u could help me to get my parents to understand my feelings, and how much hard work i put in. Love You Daddy in heaven(:

ytd went out with waisze and aish(:
haha! we were supp to go to marina sq, so me and waisze met there first, but guess what! AISHWARYA HAVE TO JUS ASK US TO GO BACK TO MARINE PARADE LIBRARY! AIYOYO. so we went back, it was so fun, we were laughing like right from the beginning to the end of the study, haha! we kept snatching away ash's potato wedges xD and we took her SPECS AND SHE KEPT BEGGING FOR IT!!! hahah they're such a funny pair, but Hoileng couldnt make it): she was taking care of POPIAH TAN at home x)

it's so funnyyy. there's just wayy too many hilarious things to type, but anyway, 2 model agencies called me! :D i felt happy. i was supposed to go for a shoot ytd in the morning at 9 at Kallang, but i couldnt make it!!! UGH stupid lah i had to take a cab down to simei to pay my doc bills): however one thing that brightened my day, another model agent called to tell me she would want me to take up a shoot for a photographer. its so coolllllllll! she asked me to quote a price, but i didnt dare so i said i leave it to her. alright, but i'm not gonna be into modelling for the time being, i'm new at it, so i'm sure i need some time to master the basics before i go serious into it. and since i'm short of time to study, i should leave them aside till i tell my mum about my results. (oh im gonna start working on my height, although i'd never believe they actually didn't mind about my braces, and my height!)

my new table is delivered(: it's GLASSY x) haha now im motivated to study x)
well, i guess i should go for my dinner now, seeya!

2009-10-24T19:30:00.003+08:00

i'm in my NEW HOUSE WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe. alright so i had a rough morning. talk about hard labour, ME.
haha xD had to CARRY THE HEAVY LOADS UP THE STAIRS I ALMOST DIED.
ughh but its an accomplishment, the past of this week was all about scrubbing floors, cleaning cupboards, removing stains, contacting dirt. ugh gross):
and SOME major part of this wk was results, really i am still feeling damn sad.
now, i alrdy failed 3 subjs! WHYYYYYYYYYY. why did i study so hard for amaths and physics yet fail? it's SO UNFAIR.

i worry that i wont be able to suffer my parent's scolding, and i really am contemplating suicide as last resort if i really cant take the stress, thus it'd be soon since im almost overflowing and nxt sat's PTC.
UGH DAMN)):
whyy, why do i work hard and not get any improvement! its so. unfair. so so unfair.

sometimes i really wish that i could go back off to heaven, sigh. but i cant bear to leave everything behind on earth.

there's someone here that taught me the meaning of true friendship and true love. thru that person i understand LOVE is everlasting, it never fails, however ironically love is failing for me. love doesnt work out for me, yet love is developing! what in the world... because of that person love seemed to become more sacred, it cannot be brought into mutual friendships that readily anymore, it is, like one in a lifetime kinda thing. well than if that is my one in the lifetime, then i'd hv none left. oh well.

there's church for me tml, and my cousins are still around-.- they were like kicking my pillow and fightin to play my hp and my laptop. GUYS< AIYOYO.
brought my cousin down to play with bubbles(: he's quite naughty at times, but he's adorable, i thank God for blessing Melissa as one of my bestie sister, we both know we'd talk bad of each other if we are pissed with each other, and we know that is not to be blamed entirely, she talked bad about me to her friends undeniably, and i have too, many times esp when we're not happy w each other, but we never failed to get things cleared up as we know we're never perfect. and she loves my family as much, she care for them and she doesnt show a hint of fear or discrimination when my slightly slow family member is around. instead she love them as much as she cares for me as her friend, she makes jokes with them, and laugh with them, not at them. her mum cares for me as much as she cares for her(although at times a little fierce:P). that is what i say, a peaceful lover. noone will try to distract our friendship, my disabled member wouldnt, neither is her mother or any of her family. well her younger bro kinda enjoy my company too x) HER COUSINS TOO!~ x)
anyway,
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.

there're many great friends around, like kyungtae, donoven, gina, huiru, hoileng, waisze, aishwarya... many others.

i want to specially thank certain ppl,
kyungtae and donoven,
for being there for me ALWAYS, even when i was thinking of suicide, you guys made so much and effort to encourage me and motivate me further, i'm stubborn, and i have every retaliation to your reasoning, yet you guys never stopped halfway but continued, thanks i love you guys.
gina, huiru,
gina ure the person i can talk to and laugh things off immediately, best sitting partner(: i still hv the precious moments pic u drew for me!(: haha thanks alot for encouraging me x)
huiru, you are, so, so, so, so, fiona's counsellor, and i really thank you so much for that, really. i'm so happy that ive such a friend, that in times of need, i just have to msg you, and no longer than 15 mins i'd get a especially long reply as to resolving my woes, i can never thank you enough for that. your msgs stopped me from tearing everytime, it actually made me reflect. thank you huiru!!!(:
hoileng, waisze, aishwarya.
i dont think u ppl will ever see this msg since u dont know ive a blog:P
but anyways, you 3, are the only ppl in 3E9 that treats me the nicest, although i only got to hang out with you guys recently, you'd never leave me out! never ever. i will always rmb the time i cried when i was talking to mrs lim, you guys actually waited for me for 45mins when you all could have left earlier, my phone vibrated thrice, and i thought it was one of you msging me to hurry up, orelse u'd be going first. however when i left school, i realised it's not, you guys didn't even rush me, i am very thankful that when i cried, waisze and aishwarya consoled me, while hoileng went to get tissue for me, thank you so much.
aishwarya you'd even treat me to bubble tea jus because i cried, you never know how touch i was.
thank you waisze for being such a good joker(: you're the funniest, and it really livens up my school term.
hoileng, ure such a great toilet partner, i swear. (: you submit to waisze's nonsensical talks with no signs of anger(:

2009-10-20T09:50:00.004+08:00

Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Romans 5:1

not been in school for days, since friday, it's almost like a one wk holiday for me x)

tomoro going back for results. it's kinda scary, actually, VERY scary.

i dont really expect any good grades, but i'm wondering now how to break the news to my parents.

but i should really enjoy my last day(today) of peace and serenity x( today's the last day with no worries bulging in my headd.

the 5 days was great, though i felt really weird not studying anymore xD study was just like a daily practice to me already, during the exam period. so i went online to search for movies to watch. watching this korean ep drama now, STYLE. nice!(:

friday, since i wasnt feeling very well in the morning, i didnt attend school. but since mummy allowed me to hv lunch outside, i went out to meet donoven and kyung tae for lunch, supp to be at astons, but i believe since it was the last day of exams for majority of the schs, there was a large bunch of students waiting to be seated. so we ate noodles instead-.-

saturdayy, ORCHARDDDDD. xD haha with winfred and kyungtae. went to canele, its also a patisserie, but sadly i felt too full aft eating my strawberry crepe): sigh. so i didnt manage to force in any of the french pastries!): but i'd go there again. definitely.

and SHOPPING with kyung tae was the best thing! haha xD of course we didnt purchase any it's like SO EXPENSIVE >.<>

hahaha.

sunday, was jus church and all about my new hse's furniture and stuff, i'm moving on sat, sigh. i thought ruoxi and i could like dance in our studio for one last time before i move out, but there isnt gonna be this chance anymore. moreover i heard that my prev church(the one ruoxi n i was in tgt before i moved away) is gonna hv youth sunday soon, and its actually me and her contributing tgt, now she's gonna be alone, i feel.. quite sad.

ahhhhhhhhh.

anyway monday met up with a long time no see primary sch classmate for a few hrs. used to go to his house with my other girl friend and mess up everyth xD hahaha.

OMG i realised its been long since i wrote in my actual diary im so gonna do that later.

i think time is passing scarily fast.

ahhh. i wish i had the ability to pace time at my pace. nono that's too selfish. i mean pace time appropriately.

its too fast, the happy moments pass quick, the sad moments painfully slow.

i learnt from timothy someth. love is never everlasting. unless with God. it marks the end of love the moment our heart stops beating. but God's love is with us even as our hearts stops.

however this concept made me form a barrier against relationships and friendships nowadays.

why build up a relationship when they ending is near, we all know in actual fact 70 to 80 yrs is not enough for us to learn all of God's words. however another of me wonder, if we do not build relationships, how do we survive through God's obstacles?

ugh, life is hard.

2009-10-09T18:12:00.003+08:00

today's literature paper.

wow i realised geog and lit are killers this time.

heard that amaths wont be so tough, but believe me or not, i'll still fail it.

okay watched Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs today(:

3D!!!!

very nice show! hahah there was food rains. damn funny. i wish this really occurs in life!(:

like, start raining........ macarons!

hahaha so colourful!

saw this really nice shop(3 nice shops actually), they sell cute antique stuff! and kittys!!! so lovable!

i bought a kitty keychain. or rather, handphone chain(:

its so very lovable, the kitty's name is berry(:

yepps. and next week,,,,,,,,,, exams's. gonna. be. over.!!!!!

freedom x)

haha not really=.= eeeeeeee LEE KYUNG TAE GOT PROM THIS YEAR!!! so lucky(:

hahaha since u want a original prom dress that noone has, then why not i do one for u??? x)

hehe then u'll be the joke of the season that day x)

havent been wearing my heels for many wks!):

i miss them, now im more of, flats, and... converse? bobian lah. moving house already so have to pack everything.

and guess wad. MY MUM KEPT ALL MY DRESSES AND SKIRT.

now its jeans frenzy for me.

thank God, i have my tanks and shirts around.

haha, its been long since i had a family gathering. kinda miss it.

nevermind(: going to HK with them soon, in.... a month plus!(:

ahhhh. im moving temporary to my other house beside stpatricks, sadly there isnt any facilities(not that i even use it often-.-)

but still!!!!! but there's really nice food around the area!(:

okay, i think im off to watch my 2nd last ep of MOONLIGHT RESONANCE((:

wheee.

2009-09-28T18:20:00.002+08:00

(: great day, had hell lot of fun at the swing.

hahaha fiona's addiction currently-SWINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

ooh the adrenaline rush is so oh my gosh, perfect.

cant wait to get done with the finals, and head off to escape, or maybe wild wild wet, for a change.

havent been to wildwildwet for AGES.

last time,? hmm, p5 i think, when i was just staying opposite downtown east.

however certain things i'm not looking forward to, like,

school, since there isnt gonna be anymore self revision periods):

and.. perhaps dance? since i missed out so many lessons, i doubt i'd make it and learn the steps in time for open house 2009.

though i'll try, it's almost impossible.

not forgetting those extra curriculum that we'd have......................... wahh :(

but let's look on the BRIGHTTTT SIDE! :D

after these tortureee, i'm heading off to hongkong with 17 people.

hahaha it's been long since i travelled in large groups.

cousins, aunties and uncles, haha i just gotta do well for my exam,

only so that i can enjoy my trip.

and i just got reminded by donoven that i owe he not a treat, but treatSSSSS.

haha great, there goes my savings x)

joking lah. hahaha.

oh yeahhh. i just finished watching 唐心风暴(when im supp to be studying=.=), it's fantastic, fantastic, fantastic. it's a great show.

it's not all about love love love, and cat fights and nonsense,

but it's about kinship, family, and, in general, life.

teared a dozen times watching that show. hahaha cant wait to watch moonlight resonance, but nah not now. after my exams, which is... in 3 weeks!(:

don't think i'm gonna be blogging regularly again,

since i doubt i'd be allowed on the com that often.

tonight... i'm gonna study................ chemistry and.. ss!(: oh maybe geog too.

wow geog's notes, they seriously pile up mountain high.

haha abit exaggerated, but im SERIOUS.

the notes are FREAKING THICKKKKKK.

parent's coming back soon, they're out having steamboat. poor me, had dinner by delivery. ):

but it's alright, cause i had it with my grandmother!!(:

she went home by bus, she insisted not taking a taxi since it'd cost a bomb.

hahaha hope that she's safe, and reach home safely, God bless her(:

and Lord i pray for kyungtae that she recovers from her physical and emotional pain.

kyungtae mooncakeeeeeeeeeee. love ya love ya. oh yeah! mooncake season now hor!

wait till i hang out with u, will get u one!(:

forget the pain and move on, u have me x) whatever happened in the best, it's all over and let bygones be bygones. thank God u're one who accept imperfections.

人生难免有瑕疵。there's bound to be imperfections in life.

to my friends who forgave me of my wrongdoings in the past, thank you, that im given a chance to be a better person.

and as for those who thinks u're right still, and do not wish to forgive, then i apologise, sorry, that i didnt manage to meet your expectation, and that if that's the case, our friendship isn't worth dragging on cause it'll hurt both of us more. no matter who tries their best to help, their help to us isnt gonna bring us closer, but further. they mean no hinder, but they're doing so of their best ability to bring back a pair of friends who once seemed inseparable to them.

thanks, for helping me throughout this(i think u'll know who u are when u read this); although i almost got u into trouble a few times, and got u into a tangled situation, you forgave me again and again, thank you so much, and i know, u're not bias to either of us, i understand you, really(: thankssssss! u best study partner x)

2009-09-25T18:05:00.005+08:00

生命诚可贵，(life is precious,

爱情价值高，love is priceless,

诺为自由敌，if you fight hard for freedom,

双者皆可抛。you may just let both slip away.)

what a really slack day it was today, besides a maths. haha binomial theorem is really made much easier my Mr Seah's foolproof teaching! it was really hot today though, the slightest things got me on my nerves, thank God Celia was there to laugh with me about certain teacher's dressing during assembly x)

hmm legacy was about sex again=.= there was this roller coaster thingy.. it was quite interesting.

like- eyecontact-talking-holding hands-kissing-passionate kissing-light petting-heavy petting-sexual intercourse.

haha hilarious la we were given cups of water, some of the water are contaminated(by the counsellor-.-) and den we had to go around exchanging water, and it all ended up with only 3 ppl not getting contaminated! wow.

wen to carl's jr at plaza with donoven after school; it was my first time there. their burgers are humongous seriously. haha but it was quite nice, i had the fish burger, without tomato and cabbage x) and their drinks are refillable!!! so suitable for singaporeans to dine in x) haha and so i studied there for about an hour and dear donoven had to make me get out of my comfort zone to accompany him to walk around the mall=.= thanks ah. x.x

there's tuition tomorrow, not really looking forward to chem though. only physics' fun(: i just dont understand my teacher when he teaches chem so most of the time ill stone and end up copying yiying's work):

ahhh. looking forward to sunday though!!! haha new church, new environment, new friends. haha but i really do miss agpc, and the some people there.. like samantha, rachel, natalie, jermaine, amanda, sarah, jonathan, donoven, and many many moreeeeee. i dont know when i'd ever go back and visit agpc, but i know, not now, never until things quieten down or rather, settles down.

exam's in a wk's time. like nxt thurs and fri's gonna be hcl pp 1 and ss and english pps. (: must jiayou! and shit. i realise ive tons to revise.

alrighty. gotta call melissa tonight at 8pm. fiona please remember orelse u'll get slaughtered when she's back during cny. x)

cheers!!(:

2009-09-24T20:56:00.003+08:00

picturessssssss x)

end with a tempting picture xD

2009-09-24T17:52:00.004+08:00

Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up. James 4:10

there's no dinner for me again, im punishing myself since i wasted 10 bucks on rice,fries,chickenwing and i didnt eat everything and my mum had to throw them away.

i felt so bad... my mum was scolding me that night saying how ive wasted so much food, back at the third world country so many children are dying of hunger.

and it brought me back to this picture of a vulture waiting for a poor dying of hunger child to die, then it would attack the child. after my mum's scolding, i felt really bad, i decided to eat what is enough for me from today, and not be lazy to walk downstairs to get my food.

classes have been very tiring and stressful as we edge towards the fyes, it's tough, and tougher, getting really bad these days. i'm facing stress in every angle possible- studies, parent's expectations, and certain other things.

i'm at a state where it's either i clear things up and save a 2 yrs friendship, or fight further and ignore each other and lose this 2 yrs friendship that we built up, that we had to overcome so many obstacles. but however i realised that in this 2 yrs, we tolerated too much of our differences and just presented ourselves similar, so much so that when everyth builts up inside, one day when it explodes, it just doesn't seem to stop.

i want to clarify things with you, but there's so many other distractions; that we cannot stop and slow down. to think and reflect what exactly is wrong. it's just so tiring, it's like you ran a marathon, and u jus wan to keep with that pace and run and run and be ignorant to everything. but i'm sure there's some part in life where we will lose out energy, and slow down to think. by then, i dont know if things would be too late. i dont know how things would have turned out.

that's why im trying my very best to slow u down to listen, but i realise each time i approach u, u run even further and faster.

it's hard, i dont know why, but it is. it's so hard to clarify yourself and to prove your innocence. i once told huiru when i was on the verge of breaking down, that why dont i try jumping off to prove myself? she woke me up by telling me that it's not gonna prove anyth, it's jus gonna lead on to ppl thinking im running away from reality. but noone actually understands how important this friendship is to me, i never believed in perfection, and she's never perfect as a friend, as a sister, but yet my imperfection was actually the reason of us getting agitated with each other. i dont understand how you keep thinking that humans are perfect, they're not, although it takes time for them to continue perfecting themselves, in due time, they still wont be perfect.

there are times i just want to move on and forget all about the past, but to me it isnt easy.

argh.. i should jus forget all about the friendship and move on, thinking back, there may also be no point stopping down wasting your time when u're 15, when u're barely even half ur dying age, one should jus get on with it i guess. make full use of time, now i just want to excel in my studies, and when i grow up, i will pursue what i always have wanted since young, i'll do what i want and be satisfied, 知足是乐. life is actually simple, but humans actually complicate it alot. like so much that we actually lose the real meaning of life.

Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path;

2009-09-09T10:41:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry things have to turn out this way.
i havent got over my past.
i hate you, i hate you being stubborn, i hate you denying your love.
i hate everything about you.
but i love you.
you said your love will last forever,
you said you'll need me,
you said i made up your world.
why isnt everything turning out the way it was supposed to be?
you're the reason that i breathe,
the reason that i smile,
the reason that i live.
now you're gone,
i m nothing,
i have nothing,
except a heart that tells me,
u mean everything to me.
i love you.

2009-09-07T16:09:00.000+08:00

yay the fasting is over!
but i cant believe im actually still sick!
it's been 1 month.
since my asthma relapse, and triggered alot of fever going on at night.
now im freezing and my temperature is-unknown. i havent took my temperature,
lost my thermometer);
okay.. church camp was really fun. although someth kinda spoilt my mood.
but i dont really care, i eventually had my share in captain's ball.
it was really fun, but throughout the game, my chest felt really painful.
and i didnt bring my inhaler so afew times i had to stop and drink water.
omg playing sports with guys are horrendously scary.
those rough creatures.
fasting was quite fun x) like we didnt eat la, and was really hungry,
but thank God for all those little happy distractions that got us thru the whole thing!
whereas those poorer people,
they really do not even the chance to cut edges, by having milo or chicken soup!
thank you Lord,
by faith we live Your word. by faith we bring ourselves to You.
to do Your Word, and to let You be proud of us.
((:

it only takes a spark to get the fire going,
and soon all those around can warm up in its glowing.
That's how it is with God's love once you've experienced it;
you spread his love to everyone;
you want to pass it on.

What a wondrous time is spring,
when all the trees are budding;
the birds begin to sing,
the flowers start their blooming.
That's how it is with God's love once you've experienced it;
you want to sing, it's fresh like spring,
you want to pass it on.

I wish for you, my friend,
this happiness that I've found;
you can depend on him,
it matters not where you're bound.
I'll shout it from the mountain top;
I want my world to know,
the Lord of love has come to me,
I want to pass it on.

experience God's love, pass on His love.
and then u'd know how to sacrifice your love,
so that the person u love would be happy.
that's what im doing for u, _______.
be happy.(:

2009-08-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

today was a pretty good day i guess. great weather, unexpected msgs from 2 ppl(:
you called, by accident. and when i heard u talking at the background, stupidly i wanted to stay on the fone forever.

sigh there isnt much i want to update here about,
i guess id be changing my blogskin later.
i miss roller blading, damn.
with exception of fallingg and the embarrassment.
good gracious.
life is getting BORED-er and BORED-ER. seriously everyday i jus wake up
look forward to FRIDAYYYYY.
and once sunday come,
ill dread life AGAIN.

of course now i dont want to go searching for fun and highs in life
pretty much the reason,
that if i lose those fun n laughter n joy,
id totally be distraught all over
might as well suffer once and for all.
recently i feel that im denying myself from love and relationships.
whatever thoughts i hv in mind,
as long as it's about him
i banish it to the great depths of hell(omg-.-)
yeah but its seriously that bad
guess im escaping far far away from love.
in the past id always try and remain positive about reciprocal's
but nowadays i find it tough
very very tough
noone picks you up.
and i do not need anyone to pick me up.
im fine myself and that'll be so forever.

oh and i really wanna adopt a babyyyyyy! or have one.

2009-08-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

seems like blogger hasnt been repaired. still cant upload fotos. sigh
haha. anw today went with don for SAKAE sushi buffet x)
hahaha so fun! he ate apparently MUCH MUCH more than me. hahaha that piggg x)
we should go more often. like every friday or someth!
now he owes me canadian pizza!

okay now back to dull school life. haha, i failed amaths springtest, totally screwed.
damn. and my nose and throat isnt torturing me enough, they are still coughing and sneezing aft 3 wks of medication.
i mus have pneumonia.
i wanna watch many movies b4 i die!!! i wanna watch - where got ghost, final destination 4, (someth someth)meatballs, the proposal.. okay that's not alot, jus 4, BUT STILL.
i want to visit Paris, Hawaii, Manhattan, Vienna, Maldives..
i want to get married and have kids!
i want to have my own patisserie(i wish=.=)
i want to have a successful life(damn no hope with my results now)
i want to get baptised once my parents accept christ
i want to be a history teacher in Jap to teach those Jap students TRUE history of the evil and cruelty of the Jap soldiers(but im not doing history now sigh)
i want to wear a bridal gown!
i want to try modelling
i want to visit wildwildwet and escape theme park and sg's very own universal studio!
i want many many things, but which do i actually need hah? i also dunno; like none leh.
anw. most things i want to do is impossible, so die early also nvm.

sunday is our church's birthday xD
hahaha happy early birthday agpc! jus in case i dont post till then.
and monday's back to school and blablabla the silly things begin all over.
guess how i live my life.
i live it looking forward to every friday,
its the only day i get to hang out with my best frens,
like Donoven and RuoXi and KyungTae, Gina(ALWAYS FOR TUITION THOUGH)(:
though most of the time is Donoven,
since i see ruoxi like 6times a wk,
and kt is always busyyyyy)):
yeah. so i keep my fridays FREE from SCHOOL UGH.
hahaha (:
okays ill go now,
cya (:

2009-08-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

on the fone with melissa now x)))
hahaha 5days ago she was in paris! 2 days ago she with me at this time! and NOW. ta-dah! she's beijing=.=
wow she sure can travelllllllll.
hahahaha.
believe me or not we've been on the fone for an hour plus!!!+.+
like beijing-sg call!! :D
I WANT HER BACK HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! :D
anyway.
i passed my e maths chemistry and physics formative testtttttttttttttttttttttttt! :O
impressive eh.
didnt go for dance todayyyy. not feeling well,
mc for 3 days!! but anyway i still go to school for lessons(:
haha. i was on the bus just now thinkingg. of the memoriess.
melissa. and fiona.

cherry, yixi(: baboon, (he who mus not be named[:)
and cherry was table, baboon was chair, and rayner was sky! hahahahx)
once melissa fell off the bus steps, DAMN FUNNY. omg. i was laughing like shit.
so she got her revenge. when she came back from bj.
she saw me fell flat on my face at isetan.
she freaking laughed and walked SLOWLY
enjoying my sight! mean shit x)
and once when we saw cherry, i was running out of kfc ;D
and when we saw baboon, MELISSA WAVED AT HIM OMG. I WAS HELL RUNNING OUT much moreeeeeeeee.
hahahahahahahahaaaaaa!
andddddddddddd.
once we were on the swing talking about death! hahaha.
school swing before dance.
talking about how i was losing blood and how melissa would come from bj if i do die.
andddd. her son would be called xiao sa(me forced her to choose tt;P) and my son would be called ying jun(:
hahaha so funny we were swinging our legs like insanely. and we almost tripped an ahpek.
...
running under the rain abt marineparadelibrary we saw this grp of guys
they started talking to us and i ran away pulling melissa along CRYING.
and melissa was crazy wanting to haunt them down at the playground! =.=
andd once we were running across the road to pp,
it was raining heavily. I RAN WITH SLIPPERS AND IT DROPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD.
i CRIED ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I CURSED AND SWEARED AT MELISSA.
she felt sooooooo bad she wanted cry too xD
recount:
melissa: CROSS!
fiona: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
melissa: CROOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
fiona: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH (kena pulled)
theres this stupid guy at the cafe, he keeps asking us stuff.
idiot.
and once after dance we went to a cafe, and we started pulling out coins to try make up the price for the brownie, and wasnt enough! short of few cents, and we kinda thot we could redraw from our ezlinks=.="
and once at the cafe, MELISSA ACTUALLY dropped her ice cream which was on the brownieeee!
omg its so hilarious...
once i was staying over in her hse,
decided to go marine parade to buy some bread, so we rannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn/ jaywalkedddddddddd
across the mad road of cars
and we were screaming as we were running x)
and! once we went to icecream chef outside her house,
(afewdays back, someone commited suicide at her neighbouring block)
den i when i walked past there, i realised it's the area and i started screaming and pulling her away! :O
hahaha! i remember everytime when we hear tht der isnt dance, she and i would go crazy and go to tampines to take neoprints xD
once, before dance we even went to raffles hotel's toilet to change into dance attireeeeeee! :P:P
oh man. i miss her.
we had a huge quarrel on the last day of sch term, her last sch term in sg b4 going to bj. we both were so angry at each other we practically ignored each other.
but at the end of sch, she came up and asked
"going parkwayyyyyyy???"
and i looked up and laughed. haha best friends i belive,
dont need explanations. or "clearing up".
when i heard she was going to bj, though we were jus besties for only a few months, i cried. i rmb i was looking outta my window, i never thought my friendship could be so short lived.
memories of her and i working in my parent's comp, sitting at the same desk having our lunch, saying that my chair is sexy, and her table is sexier, throwing up popcorns that is supp to land in our mouth ending up all over the floor, getting recognised as sisters, eating icecream whilst walking around the whole office vicinity, crying at any thoughts of baboon or cherry, moodswings that was predicted by her-they were never wrong.
of course our friendship wasnt perfect. misunderstandings, gossips, and all kinda frenship probs came in, but i guess. afterall humans do err. and imperfection's wad makes the memories perfect right?(:
technically, there's so much memories that i cant possibly finish typing. every outing, is someth worth remembering,
she's my first fren that brought me to understanding that it's okay to have scars on ur legs, who gives a shit?! and it's okay that humans cry, cause we all fragile. and she brought me to understand that a long distance friendship, sisterhood is possible. and it was her, who brought me to a stage where i learnt to be braver, to not care too much abt ppl's comments, and to be my true self.
(:
sisters forever.(:

2009-08-07T14:01:00.000+08:00

just let those raindrops fall,
says the rainbow.

stuck at home. grr. okay.
wed during 2.4, whilst running, suddenly i felt my chest hurting,
like v hard to breathe.
den aft tht i squat down immediately and started vomiting and tearing;
den Mrs Tan and one of my junior came by to help, thanks..
and later on Ruthie and WaiSze came to bring me to the sick bay and attended to me for 2 whole periods..
thanks(:
yeah it was like asthma, i couldnt get enough oxygen,
it was rather tough, but thanks to WaiSze and Ruthie that i had a less tough time.
they really helped alot by my side in the sick bay.
and my dad was called up, so my bro came to pick me up.
visited Dr Ng, and he was saying i have 90% chance of h1n1,
and MOH alr gave commands to treat patients with history of other sickness(my case, asthma), as though they hv h1n1, and hv tamiflu as medication.
yeah surprisingly i had a fever, (which i didnt have in the morning).
and so i was sent home. and now im in my house.
not able to get out of this place):

i really wanna go to school today... bt i didnt make it in the end.
thanks, to my friends who showed concern(:
argh im so lonely at home.
i have nothing to do. i sleep. i read. i eat. and i sleep.
so i took a pic of myself wearing mask,
but srsly im too tired to upload.
im feeling breathless just sitting up here typing this post.
oh man i dont wanna die so early.

and ive got great news, i finally passed my physics omg. (no wait i didnt get a damn A)
first phy paper that i pass this year.
i really do think Mrs Lim did a great job as our teacher,
altho i do miss Ms Ngo,
but Ms Ngo's methods of teaching was not suitable for a class like mine(=.=")
Mrs Lim is firm on her stand and damn scarily fierceee.
which is perfect.
made for teaching lah.
hahaha our class with like dunno how many failures last term,
(when Mr Tang wanna show our results statistics in the studio, everyone was like ashamed-.-)
to only one failure now!!!
wow, what else, but accomplishment.
i dont know why, i feel that my academics' heading towards a brighter path,
BUT. not my amaths! why why why!
becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I
DONT
FREAKING
GET
TRIGOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
ohman. trigo sucks.
yes yes it sucks so much.
alpha and beta rocks much now.(since i know grasped the knowledge well xD)

hahaha. anw i havent been studying for 2 dayss. hahaha loads to catch up.
this weekend, actually wan go shopping de y'know.
hopefully i'll be well soon. ((:

2009-08-04T18:36:00.001+08:00

national day's coming soon,
wonder how the atmosphere would be like this year.
haha i dont sense excitement anywhere currently,
maybe Mr Seah's child would arrive on national day x)
hmm. i missed a passing grade for a maths by 1/2 marks.
so unfairrr.
i've always thought that 1/2 marks isnt that impt until recently i realised
how big a difference it'd make.
just like efforts.
it's either 100% or u're missing that perfection.
tough ehh.
not like human dont err. but after making an error,
i guess it's only right to move on and PICK up from that setback.
in the past, ive only moved on and on and on.
but ive also been failing and failing and failing.
bcos i learnt nth from my failures at all.
although sometimes it's too late to return to where you left off,
i believe God would give us another chance,
with someone else,
with something else,
or better; a chance to go back to where we left,
yet under better circumstances, when our soul's ready for it.

priorities, i've yet to sort them.
top's God, and followed by....?
studies? family? friends? love? hobbies?
if we say we put our families before our friends,
humans, us do have feelings and do love being prioritized.
we dont show them explicitly that families come b4 them.
however there are certainly ppl out there who does inconsiderate things as such,
telling one how they are not their priority.
all i can say is, dont make someone your priority if ure not their's.
it's jus a waste of effort.
technically if they dont give a shit, why should you?
be it friendship, relationship, courtship, whatever-ship,
frankness is muchly appreciated to a certain extent.

okay kt i posted x)

2009-07-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

heys, back to post even though there's exams tml :)
hmm today wasnt a exactly a great day.
conflicts, and many other things that aint worth me mentioning about.
i guess weekends though, may be the slackest of the wk,
it's rather tiring for me, its something that i kinda dread,
something that i dont look forward to anymore!
i have lost everything that i have.
God's there, where?
i cant feel Him, i cant sense Him!
):
but thanks, thanks kyungtae.
i guess ure right. life is basically NOT over,
neither is it MESSED UP. or screwed.
please Lord, im begging You, to help me reaarange my life,
let it be in order.
let the credibility of my closest friends remain.
there isnt perfections in this world,
no matter how hard i strive for perfections,
the minimised imperfection would be there still be der.
which brings me to think, why strive then?
if striving for perfection is almost impossible, why do it?
yet if we dont strive for perfection, it's almost impossible to improve in this intriguing human society.

sometimes i wish to put everything to the back of my head;
ignore the facts of this world.
self-denial isnt really a good practice.
but self-denial brings me temporary happiness.
in comparison to brooding sadness,
i would choose to live in self denial.
everyday i find myself heading towards no direction,
it feels like damn, what am i doing here on earth. ugh.
aunty Angeline shared with us the beauty of life in heaven.
with a new sacred body. after we die.
it seems to perfect. i feel like i want, and i YEARN to have that body.
i YEARN to go to heaven,
so much so that i am willing to die now, to get there.
afterall, that is my final destination, the one im striving hard to, in order to reach right?
but im stuck in this place full of sorrows worries fear temptations what not.
things tire me out so easily nowadays.
i've lost what i did not treasure.
i've gained things i did not ask for,
is this what i really want after all?
nope. i dont think so.
happiness is really short-lived. do treasure.

2009-07-20T17:52:00.002+08:00

life's basically not being fair but urgh whatever im coping well.
rough times ahead, studies and all.

last saturday eventually met up with Joal for lunch haha he's FREAKING TALL OMG. he's like 2 or 2 and half heads taller than me, i felt like i was an ant beside an elephant=.=

haha and also, last saturday and sunday was a mad rush of preparation for youth sunday, and also actual youth sunday itself. haha danced. was kind of fun, but after all it was all for God. thank you Lord.

basically everyth went pretty well until... certain people did really irritating things. look here look there, smile here smile there, eew gross much.

right i've started a new week with a new perspective of dating at our age. nah no offense to those who are dating, but im jus gonna make a fair judgement. dating isnt appropriate and it's plain stupid to think "love" actually exists at our age. i came across this really good book about Christ and relationships. i have the urge to write all about it, but no im not that free.

anyway in general, why pursue a relationship at this age when it isnt even commitment to begin with? being in love is just feelings. unless ready to commit, we shouldnt date for the sake of dating; when we know that teenage relationship is going to head to who-knows-where.

im not anti-dating , but im thinking that there's much more things to pursue now rather than to have a relationship that takes away all your energy and time from your other activities in life.

okay enough of that. over this 3 days i managed to scare off a few ppl damn. last saturday i was strolling home in my white dress(the one for dance on youth sunday). and then this 2 girls were walking, they suddenly saw me and turn away and walked back. and then when i walked past them i saw them turn and look at me, hahaha guess what i turned and staredddddddd. WOA. haha i think it freaked them out xD well who asked u to stare at me huh.
and then today in school i was in the cubicle about to close the door when 2 ppl came in, then they thought noone was inside, so when i locked the door, it made a sound and they both screamed and laughed and ran away=.=

wth. what's so scary? oh yeah it's july now isnt it. hahahah.

today had napfa test. omg i screwed sit ups. i only did TWENTY. i could do 30 over just last wk!!!))): well it's all pull ups' fault ARGH. i swear my head hurts till now, i was in a rush to get up and i knocked my head onto the metal thingy oh my goodness i saw stars soon after. that SHUTTLE RUN TEACHER WAS SUCH AN.........................ASS. ARGH HE MADE ME RUN TWICE JUST BECOS THAT STUPID BLOCK OF WOOD WAS ABIT OFF THE LINE. DAMN.

and standing board jump no need say le. it's always been my suckiest. sit and reach's my best but still. sigh i think this really screwed my day. plus some people really dont know how to consider my feelings uhh.

melissa's gone, to europe. sigh wont get to see her till cny. i realised something. when i have someth, i have everything. when i lose someth, i lose everything.
but God's always der even if i gain or lose anything.

okay i saw this wonderful phrase in 3/3 classroom today:
When life gives you lemon, make lemonade. When life gives you strawberry, check if it's poisoned, eat it and say your thankful prayers.
woo, talk about how life isnt a bed of roses.

2009-06-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

hey. it's half past 11. im tired. tired of crying.
i cried and cried and cried not too long ago.
thank God for helping me solve this situation b4 i go to bed.
i used a very very bad word on someone i love so deeply,
for the very first time in my life; i used that word.
it was anger's fault. stupid anger of mine.
i'm sorry darling, 10l2s..
i shouldn't have done it.
it sucks.
my life is so ruined by my sensitiveness.
OVERsensitive.
i've made ur life go haywire, i'll help u straighten it back,
i'll be there.

had a little conversation with melissa ytd.
sigh if oni it was today that we could have the conversation,
so u could be here to cheer me up.
thanks kyung tae, for being here.
love ya.
ruoxi jus came back from thailand,
she enjoyed herself and got herself lots of things.
glad she's happy,
well i cant wait to see her to update her on life this 3 days.

tuesday i'd be going to sentosa with kyung tae and don,
hope it'd be fun.
maybe i'll get don to bring his soccerball :P den we'd play volleyball with it.(:
or maybe i'd buy a silly ball der, or buy a real volleyball if it's affordable.
think i wanna take the luge ride again(: or maybe this time jus skyride bah. dunno lah.
i wan to enjoy it to the max!
i just wanna be happy.
sigh.
ooh yeah. the sea in siloso beach isnt that clean afterall,
i saw a floating ALGAE. omg 0.0
could have fainted.
this time i wont be wearing heels, and dress;
i'd be wearing........
more casual stuff.
okay i cant wait((:
oh dear tml i have to finish my chinese script!
argh it's late, i wanna slp now..
nights!

2009-06-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

slippers from ripples(: just 9.90 for 2!

my hand was SHIVERING. we were on the skyride.

tram to siloso!

vivo, b4 going to sentosa. look at the disturbing germs adv.

hey that germ this really disturbs me.

whee im back from SENTOSA trip ytd! :D it's damn fun okay.

basically it was jus me and ruoxi der, so we were at vivo when we saw this grp of guys. then we took the same monorail, then at sentosa when we were queuing up for the tram, they said hi to ruoxi(apparently i heard when i walked by, and when i asked ruoxi she said they said to her)! :D:D okay, then they board the bus, PURPOSELY sit infront of us. stupiddddd! den they purposely ask one of their friends to sit in front of us, to take "his" foto. in fact they were adjusting to put in our faces. i wonder are singaporean male teenagers that boliao and nth better to do. disgrace. disgrace.

then, they alighted and we din, cos ruoxi felt irritated. haha so we went to take the luge ride and skyride!

after that had ice cream, then went to siloso beach. okay. and when we walked in, someone suddenly shout "EH!!!".

guess wad. it was that group AGAIN. aiyo. then wen we were in the sea, they shouted "HELLO!" to us and attempted to swim over. INSANE. so we swim awhile only. thanks huh "guys", wait i tink they're more like "gays".

haha. erm. wait. we kinda attracted loads of attention cos we wore sundress and heels to the beach :D so yeah. haha, and some girls totally stared till their eyeballs pop. scared the hell outta me(the popping eyes) and got me damn pissed, felt like digging out their eyes. argh.

okay, then got someone said me and ruoxi look like sisters((: haha, and we had alot of fun lah.

aww she's emoing now):

anw, i had a badddddddddddd dream.

i dreamt that someone i love so much died. i woke up at 5am and i just had to call donoven. i cant stop crying, and thanks don, he sacrificed 30mins of his sleep to comfort me... thanks.

sigh i dont like life the way it is. things get too traumatic, we'll never know when one's gonna leave. 天下无不散之宴席... there's just an ending to everything. the only thing that doesn't have an end to is God's love. but now im having SO MUCH difficulty building a strong relationship with Him. sometimes it gets soo tiring i feel like i dont wanna try anymore.

i just detest the worries that humans have, why cant we be worry-free and be much happier? it's totally impossible. with all the materialistic ppl on earth, it's just impossible.

oh yeah. i learnt, God doesnt give u what u wan, He gives u opportunities to cherish. one eg is me and someone. if i din cherish the opportunity, till now, i doubt we'd have known each other, and everything that had gone between us for the past 15 months would have been impossible.

speaking of which, i've this friend who has this mental barrier regarding guys.

she've been ill treated by guys since young, i empathise her for it. but we gotta pray hard that the barrier will be gone. there's no point going for therapy if you yourself dont try. therapy is to help you with curing yourself, there's no medicine that can cure this kinda thing. so she just have to try her best to overcome it. i'd pray for her. i just find that sometimes when i suffer abit, i'd be stronger. so maybe it's that case for you too, instead of thinking that ur situation is tad bad and that u're NOT exaggerating, then think of it that u are jus exaggerating it abit, then u can actually calm yourself down.

i dont think u are exaggerating either, cos those incidents u relate to me are too real already. but u can only help yourself by telling yourself the situation isnt that bad afterall. there's wayyy moreeeeeeeee situations much worse off than urs, think of it this way k?

that's all for today(:

2009-06-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

after swimming (:

sexy back xD

we love camwhoring :D

oops, poor bearrrrrr dragged into our insanity

ruoxi looks fascinated :O

i had their eye almost gouged out for this :D

we all love SG(:

white and red dancers :D

peekaboo successor- xinyi and fiona. spoiler- ruoxi and shermaine :O

cheeze :D

miranda asked : "why are your smiling at nothing??!"

:D

glory of TKG dance :D

yay, ive got some photos uploaded AT LAST! haha btw, they are jus SOME. not all up here.

okie, after being cooped up at home for THREE days, im heading to sentosa today! :D yay yay yay. it's gonna be hell lottas fun. well at least i'm hoping for that =/

the oven like weather isnt really sparing, so i guess im gonna be roasted. my parents aint allowing me to swim, so im jus gonna play around in the shallow waters, im praying i dont see a stingray. or jellyfishes! they're my greatest fearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i gotta develop some 200 pictures, apparently it'll cost a bomb. well i guess it's fine, cos this pictures are kinda memorable. oh. bacck to sentosa. wonder how's the prices of the food der, it's like, donoven once bought a coke at 4bucks=.= ouch. i think i'll go buy the 1.5litre one at some supermart b4 i enter sentosa xD haha kidding. i thought of goin canoeing, but ruoxi said it was expensive, sooooooo FINE. no canoeing. i wanted to go by cablecar, but it's too exp. rather spend jus 6bucks on the travelling, the rest of the money can go shopping! (heheheh)

okie now im waiting for ruoxi to go on skype!:D webcam. ohmy. speaking of which, last night was the first time she had a webcam convo. she was so hilarious. xD hor ruoxi? haha!

enough teasing :D

argh i cant wait to get changed and leave my house! :D:D wheeeeeeeeeeee.

okay, and nxt tues issssssssssss ___________________________'s 15th month anniversary, so we're celebrating it at wild wild wet or escape theme park! im so excited la, kt! the last time i wen there was last june, rmb that day?? :D:D

haha. welll, time passes REALLY quickly. in a blink of an eye. (cheem eh... xD)

okie, i guess i'll clear up my things now, so later easier to pack when i am going to leave house :D

2009-05-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

hello!
i'm still really lazy to upload those pics, so yeah; bear with it :D
haha, oh! singapore has it's first H1N1 case! whee~ so cool. (saddist)
okay well, hope sg's condition will remain stable lah. haha.
argh. results. failure. disappointment. sigh... i cant belive i actually failed
SS, AM, PHY, CHEM. WATTTTTTTT?!?!
and all my other results, are jus average! no a's, no b's! all c's! this is my WORSE TERM. WORSE TERMMMMMMMMMMMMMM): everything sucks so much.
i actually slogged my butt off and i'm getting shit results.
and if i dont study, i still can achieve one or two a's. ARGH.
what's the point of working hard man.
waste my effort. right. i forgottten, im born stupid. so stupid.
i studied hardest for am, followed by chem, den physics. and believe it anot, ss was my a1 subj last term. shit.
i'm so screwed. my mum and dad's gonna skin me alive. roast me. and den devour me.
okay maybe not, but yes, it's gonna be as fateful anw.
see, last term i failed 3, and with 2 a1s, 1 a2, and my dad was like ranting his head off.
now? no need say, we all know.

and i'm working hard on my relationship. but i'm getting really tired being the only one putting in effort. i don't get how things can get so complicated as time passes, i initially thought that as time pass, and we get to know more about each other, we'd be much better.
obviously u proved me wrong about that. i'm tired of being the one who have to ask to call, and when we're on the phone, u're not concentrating, and just watching ur tv, whatnot. i'm tired of having you always giving excuses, i'm just tired.

argh. june isnt gonna be as nice afterall, kyung tae. so sorry)):
love ya, i'll make it up to u, asap.

2009-05-19T09:52:00.004+08:00

whee im backk! to post. recently life's going on pretty well(: however now it's the pending results that'll be judging if this "pretty well" period will last.

okay im gonna post about. coco. last wk, an eventful wk. and okay nothing alr.

okayyy coco! she's MISSING))): okay wait she's found but that stupid guy, VINCENT do not freaking wanna return coco to ruoxi. WTH. who does he think he is? yes seriously, i could do with an ultra large scissors and castrate him. this is so crazy. he's asking for MONEY. what, is that ransom to redeem coco?! wth. heartless freak. if he's requesting for money, then that's called KIDNAPPING damn it. and some police kinda pissed me off too. dont wanna talk about them, only make my blood boil.

last wk, tues was last paper, so after that went to watch ramen girl with ruoxi at plaza. we wore HEELS! and YAY we took neos the first time, tgt. haha. it was fun strutting around with those heels but it's jus really tiring and painful. at first we were at gv marina, but they din have the showw... argh den we had to like TRAVEL to PLAZA in those HEELS. woa. it was one hell of a time. yeah.

then, on wed, she came over to my house to swim~! :D we camwhored in the toilet in our swimsuits!!! okay wanted to post online but kt thought it was too scandalous, so yea, better not(:

thurs, she came over too, when down TWICE to book studio but they all BOOKED LE)): so we camwhored (AGAIN!!) using my webcam. then we kinda decided we wanna try posing in dress and heels, so we did, and damn. my uncle came. so we were like startled at every little sound made jus outside our door. haha. i'll post some pics at the end of the post.

on friday, had e-learning in the morning. after e learning i went to plaza to meet don, we watched angels and demons. it's nice. SERIOUSLY it's VERY NICEE~! i recommend it to EVERYBODYYYY! even someone like me likes it, proves it's DAMN nice k. haha. yeah we ate RAMEN! :D:D cos i was craving from it ever since tues when i watched ramen girl with ruoxi. haha and Ajisen Ramen's kinda expensive.

saturdayyyy. supposed to go to tuition, my mum woke me up late, so ya i missed it-.- okay, then after that, left house about 11 to meet don and kt! haha after we meet up, we went to starbucks to drink. okay that day was the first time i drank coffee! it's iced vanilla cappucino i think. hahah! that day, we were supposed to ice skate, however, don and i felt like watching angels and demons again, plus kt had a back treatment early that day, so we all decided to watch angels and demons!!!!! haha, it's still as nice, though it's the 2nd time im watching it. it's just so, interesting u noe, the twist in it, those evidences and stuff. wow. *fascinated* okiee. right. aftr the show, met mummy and suntec city, SUPPOSED TO DO HAIR DE. but she dowan guys to do, so fine, decided to put it off till sunday. had pizza, then went home.

sunday! went to church eventually. haha the hooligan pastor was hilarious. argh i'll never slash

myself on the wrist, i saw the REAL picture, it's totally gruesomeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!)): eww..

okie enuf of bloody stuffss....... aft church wen to tm with mummy and bro. we ate at delifrance.... their food is..... acceptable. yeah. but their pastries are great la. haha then we went to do our hair! yay eventually. haha now i got shorter hair xD andddd. i got my FIRST pair of converse shoes tt day! okay i never liked converse shoes k. anw i got it cos i wanna try different styles la. i've been wearing high heels and flats too often. (too girly) but actually im BORN GIRLY. face it, fiona. okay watever.

hmm. on sunday night i had fever, and flu and cough and sore throat. (symptoms of H1N1) haha. so i couldnt attend sch on monday. so monday went to the doc's, haha i DONT HAVE swine flu k. it's proven, plus i'm feeling much better today. but im given 2 days mc, since my fever's like on and off, who knows if it'll rise up today. argh tml got sch. i kinda miss it. but i dont feel like studying :P haha, and melissa's having her exams in china, good luck(:

okie fotos... will be up in the next post(:

2009-03-31T19:54:00.002+08:00

argh. i'm so freaking pissed off by this irritating person. full of lies.

anyway life's so irritating. ytd can be fun, and the nxt day who noes! depressing, frustrating. argh. im so vexed. some things just dont turn out the way u wan it. and it sucks.
received an email from my cousin, it's a really good source to start reflecting.

here goes: Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last.
We should stop making our lives complicated.
Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately,
love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here,
we should smile and be grateful.

who doesnt wanna smile and be grateful for everything God blessed us with. it's just tad hard with some ppl we're closely related to. sometimes i wonder if u trust someone, and that person betrays u, how should i react in a sensible manner? sometimes my mind tells me to just break ties with that person. but my heart tells me to persevere and clear things up.

things just happen. i dunno why, they just do. when u actually trust someone with ur entire heart, believing and always having faith that he/she wont do someth that'll hurt u, and yet they actually do it, it just seem that life's hopeless. it isnt easy to forge a relationship that strong.
well, even after apologies have been accepted by u urself, the hurt always leaves a scar behind. and then... they hurt u again.

2009-02-26T20:00:00.001+08:00

gosh. life SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSS.
big time.

nevermind. im tired OF LIFEE)): apparently i wish that God bring me away tonight in my sleep, pls do God. i wanna go HOME. haiz. my spiritual home... well im not as happy as that previous post now. in fact the truth is im not at all happy.

damnit. i failed emaths. stupid emaths. stupid stupid emaths. wonder how could i do averagely well for amaths but flunk stupid emaths. argh.

2009-02-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

heylo!!! (combi of hello and hey xD)

hahah woah i jus ought to delete this blog since it's soooo freakng dead! hmm. anw jus some updates.. on my life x)

oh well it's kinda boring.. BUT. i am happy today(: everything seems like. nice(: God worked His way into my life again! thank God! He was the one who brought me away from my tears ytd, those bucket of tears, how tiring. this wk, last wk, the wk b4 last, last month. goodness. those times, coping with the change.

but TODAY! God showed me LOVE, KINDNESS, COMPASSION, many others which im lazy to name out. but i learnt someth. Love IS perseverance. be it that u get the immediate results or not, as long as u persevere, God is always der, always always der to help u. for this is wad He said,

"you will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord"

2008-12-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

hey(:
the holidays are going to be over in no time. ): the holidays are seriously TOO SHORT! but im kinda looking forward to sch reopening in some point of view.. like, new teachers, new class(okay maybe not.), new goals! next year i mus work very hard alr. this year was the worst year in my whole life, academically. too slack.
and now, i hv to face the consequences): i have to quit ballet classes! haiz... adding on, i have a restricted life now, meaning- no freedom. oh well im still going to strive thru this and next yr FIRST term i gotta prove myself and show that i can do it((: and den hopefully, by then my mum wld let me go for the church performance(: this cmg monday,,, gotta go church for practice... i hope it'll all go well and hopefully oni 1 session can choreograph everyth le. den i can stop hvng to think of excuses to go to church.

tml is my daddy's bdae! happy bdae daddy(: we're going to go to raffles city to eat at shokudo street or someth i think. haha! their ramen there is really nice((:

im leaving for malaysia this cmg wed.. im rather reluctant to go. ):
anw i gotta go down and open the back gate for ruoxi(: we're going to eunos to pass my dad someth den we're going swimming next! yay!(:
okay cya(:

2008-10-28T21:08:00.002+08:00

hey.(: im here to post today. bridging programme commenced today. woah it was pureeeeeeeeeeee tortureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. we had to sit on the floor and we had to make do with stools as our TABLES. argh! so we practically sat on the floor for 4 whole hrs!!!! but some activities tht i had aft sch kinda motivated me to pull thru tht 4 hrs.

ruoxi's sick, down with flu, rest well and regards to you with love!!! (: hope u can make it for dance on thurs. God bless (:

okay. my knitting aint going on well. there are many holes here and der, and it's horrible): i cant wait to get done with it.... but it's my debut piece, i dun feel like throwing it away. oh well..... perseverance.

movies tml! ((: it's max payne i guess. if im not wrong, im guessing it's some supernatural related thingy. not really a genre tht i'm interested in, but i'll make do with it since e other nice shows arent out yet. im ending b.c. at 12 and i gotta make it to plaza by 12.50. goodness. hopefully i wont be late!

okays tht's all for now(: nightnight(:

2008-10-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

heyy! hmm it's been quite sometime since i posted. -i think. okay the holidays are here but well im up for bridgin programme): blame my horrible results. sigh. i mus work harder. okay.

last thurs, wen swimmin((: i nearly drowned!!!! woah thank goodness my friends were der. thanks ppl(: and then!! friday was really fun too! however HSM3 din really work out for me. it wasnt nice, der's someth abt me against gabriella. i really dun like her. and ruoxi n i wore heels, those heels almost killed us, tht we had to cab home. woah i got 4 blisters!!!!

today wen to tm aft tui. got 6 dresses! IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D haha.. okay anw i got my textbks too. have to start to study early. and... i got my hair cut! and. ive now got myself shorter hair. i miss my long hair though): oh well. jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai(:

pics now (:

swensen's. my beloved maid who jus left this breaking dawn):

bro and maid(:

mummy!

ruoxi and i before hsm3.

far east plaza.. those dresses totally din work on us.

in ruoxi's hse(: ruoxi looks like a korean. in der^

huiru!

huiru n ruoxi(:

heh fiona and ruoxi.

us again(: SPLIT(s)!

okay tht's all for today. night!

2008-10-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

hello! :D long time no bloggie! whee.. exams are officially OVER! haha. and im pissed off. with TWO ppl. one's such a ruddie rude girl. how can she look down on someone who's obviously so much not up to her standard. and and. this someone, who like neglected me so much.

today ruoxi came over to my house abt 830, i jus got out of bed then. heh. then she came up and showed me all the final fantasy touching scenes! really nice seh. den wen to PP to buy manga! hah! den we wen to sch and the stupid guard!!! he dun let us go in and lock de gate seh! he from inside shout "PINAFORE!" woah seh. quite irritating. pissed me off big time!

had dance choreo with rx, xy, kim, rebecca, amanda, aqilah... for WALTZ. haha!

oh well. actually dance isnt as bad now. ms Chiam's new choreo not bad leh! :D quite nice. had much fun ytd and today la! haha!! ruoxi did a snail face to me in the bus :P we laughed until like practically every1 was staring and i almost dropped de 1.5litres of water. haha! and i got to say jian ning and gloria can do tap dancing really well. VERY COOL!!! :D haha!

and tml der's sch. sian. dun hv anth to do in sch lor.

2008-09-02T10:56:00.002+08:00

hey(:

sorry havent been posting for a period of time. i was banned from computer. i am still banned from it in fact, but jus secretly using it :P

okay, holidays now... gotta catch up with all de work. horrible results last term. must chiong! haha :D hmm dance isnt well for me. i cant get to perform for YWCA since my mum restricted my dance practices... but oh well, there's a year end performance which i hope i can take part in. all's based on my results. sigh. SYF is going on nxt yr. and i totally DREAD SYF. how nice.

i guess ill end here. bye.

2008-08-02T21:30:00.002+08:00

right... melissa's leaving tml...
i dowan her to go seriously... altho der's many wu hui btwn us, i beliv true frenshps dun go so very smoothly.... hmm. somehw i find tht mel n i's frenshp has gt many obstacles... hopefully those obstacles r gona b overcomed.... sisters/friends for forever, B.I.T.C.H ((: (mel de self proclaimed bitch :P)

last wk mel stayed overnight and we went to church tgt((: fun. haha.. last wk was really de most enjoyable wk lah! haha.. today i had ballet.. dressed really weirdly. i wore ballet tights rolled up and leotard and shorts and shirt. WEIRDDDD. and den i actually had to stand throughout a 30mins mrt ride. -.-

dance.. heh. really tiring. 2 wks work to catch up with. im really lousy with de paddaburay thing. it goes launch(right leg) back back, launch(left leg) front front, launch(right leg) back front. 2 sets. but, i always go, launch(right leg) front back. damn damn damn. jus cant get tht darn thing rite! ): de others was quite okay, altho very stressed. assemble was fun, and de countenant thingy(i forgotten the name) also fun.

yeah, and. i was freaked out in the toilet. i was FIVE CM apart from a LIZARD. i screamed and pull out a towel and ran out of de toilet. my mum was totally shocked-.- okay my maid caught it and well, i thot it was over. den wen i was trying to unclog de water drainage thingy, i saw this slimy thing. i actually touched it with my leg! DAMN. was actually cursing under my breath. anddddddddddddddddddddd. I SAW A BABY LIZARD IN THE KITCHEN WHEN I WEN IN. ))): i ran to my mum's room and started tearing=.="

hah. melissa once exp a lizard dropping on her hand when she was playing de piano, and she cursed de *word. right. enough of lizards.

tml going church! yay :D but not staying for g2 le.. gonna watch money no enough again! :D hee. okay, i shall go now :D will post again!

2008-07-09T18:47:00.002+08:00

heys(:

today had art and hcl test.. woah art is quite... hard since i din study whilst hcl test i tink i 'li ti' le..

haha went for dance today. met melissa at borders with xinyi and ruoxi.

in mac's, there's dis woman who used the toilet for a freaking long time...! ruoxi and xinyi thought i fell into the toilet bowl or someth xD haha! jianmin left earlier cos she have cca((:

tml have pe... stupiddd lahhhhhhhhh): i dowan to runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!! GAHH... and i have stupid maths tuition after that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woah bad day. then maybe ill be going to ruoxi's house(((:

friday will be another boring day. lessons till recess, then go for career talk, den will be meeting donoven(: at suntec, hopefully, ruoxi wants to get her puzzle!!! YEAH(: den go back to sch for subj combi talk.. will be ending abt 7plus((: hmm. long day! haha!

saturday going for tuition... and dance(: and sunday going church and nothing much le.. exams coming in 3 wks!!! good luck(:

and donoven's coming back in 2 days!! woohoo(: but he's leaving nxt wed again. till friday. ):

hais. okay gtg and prepare for science tuition(: cya!

2008-07-05T23:07:00.005+08:00

hey!~

ooh long time nvr blog le.. haha.

updates updates!

june holidays:
church camp- cool(: was trying to get back my skills for skating ;P apparently din work out tht well until abt an hour later! haha..

australia- fun fun fun! but i missed some ppl alot): but anw im back(: BUT. U gonna go camp for like from monday to friday........): wah)):

okay i tink the june holidays seem very short leh. china got like 2 months holiday lah... so good..

last friday i sprained my ankle!!!! and donoven did not realise lah, i was limping behind him. suppressing my expression of pain :P haha! i actually jumped into a hole-.- thanks to gina, cos she was like rushing me and askin me to faster go macdonalds!! HAHA :D but its alrite lah.

den went to church with ruoxi n donoven.. had to choreo a dance for sunday's worship. after dancing for like hours on fri and sat, we eventually got the dance choreo-ed(: danced on sunday, everyone did really really well. Bernice led the worship well, heard she din dare to sing in2 de mike prev, but tht day she dared!!! cool!! the singers sang really nicely, the sound system was really well done, the musicians did very well too! haha! hope our Father in heaven would be really happy!

melissa's back from china(: have been seeing her for de past one wk.. monday, wen to parkway, tuesday, she was sick and i were too, so din meet.

wed, she went to the doctor's with me((: den she stayed over!!! den thurs, we wen to parkway to meet her mum and to "collect my medicine" :P (only melissa will noe why it's in aprostrofe(however u spell tht). friday wen to plaza(:

nxt wk donoven's going for obs, or sec3 camp. either one i think. hope u have fun der... take care!!! and cya tml in church :P

okay pics now ((:

thts all(: byebye(:

2008-06-10T20:55:00.002+08:00

heys:D

im back to post! hmm. too many things happened since i last post.. so i shall jus update abt today.

went to escape today with donoven, ruoxi and kyungtae((:
quite fun la. but i was rather touchy. hmm. rode on de superman thing, flipper, water boat, go kart, viking, rainbow, inverter(!!!), kiddy coaster(:

all of us were like DRENCHED from head to toe after we went for de water boat thing:P first time was kinda.. weird. shooting at random. den 2nd time ruoxi grouped with me and we were against kt n don! so funny. winner is de wettest group:P we hvnt came to any conclusion yet!

go kart was a new thing for me. was rather nervous. de car was so jerky lah!! was controlling quite well though:P did not bang into anyone! haha..

and viking was quite cool lah. we advanced from de middle row to de 2nd top row! which meant.. we took abt.. 4times? haha!

rainbow's fun. not a VERY thrilling ride but jus. nice scenery to look at((:

and and. inverter- kt and don wen to sit first:P seemed rather tempting. so me and ruoxi joined:P it was addictive lah. altho we were like hanging der for like 5secs.. and almost died-.- haha!! imagine if de dunno wad thing tht secures ur body tightly becomes loose. will fall to death de leh. hah!

hmm. sadly flume ride is under maintenance... haha.. and and. tml i got a whole load of activities!! sure very tired. den thurs got church camp(: going swimming(: and i requested for entertainment from zhemin! hope he does it well=P den leaving sg le.. will be back on tues night(:

cya den(:

2008-06-03T21:13:00.002+08:00

heys:D

happy holidays!! haha.. though its rather late, but still..................................((:
quite fast leh. now already 2nd wk of hols. tsktsk. hmm. the past wk was rather... hectic i guess. haha.. without melissa ard now.... prev she wld help me plan out my time!!! and in class we would pass notes!! to plan wad we will do after sch and de remaining days in the wk!!! nothing ever went wrong...(; im so proud of it(:

haha.. today went to ecp! nice day((: aww i like de feeling when im carried!! or piggy backed!!! haha... was teaching this fren of mine dance steps. oh well. no comments:P haha.. apparently my leg muscles stronger than tht person lah!! TSKTSK. altho my balancing sucks. but it was becos of major distraction!!!! :P

after tht wen to pet shop to see DODO!! a dog tht totally loves tht person. gosh. SO LOVABLE LAHHH... wen we had to leave him, i almost cried seh. haha.. tht person also very sad can...(:

haha..generally it was jus fun today la.

looking forward to going ecp again!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D and escape, and wild wild wet!!! :D
kays, thts all for now, byebye((:

2008-05-24T19:46:00.002+08:00

heys((:

kt went UK)): leave me alone for 2wks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAH)): but anyway.. alot of things to clear up with when she's back. i nid to go tink how to tell her. haiz): nvm.. meanwhile i shall just be trouble-free((:

haha.. hmm today didnt go for dance since mum was sick and cldnt really spend 2 whole hours walking aimlessly at centrepoint! haha.. we were at parkway for awhile aft visiting my grandma.. i realised she aged alot... rather sad tht my uncles and aunties din really visit her...): they treat her house as a place of gathering, always expecting her to cook)): she's like so old?? approaching 80?! and then they wan her to cook!!! haiz...

at sushi tei today got this army guy. he was with his gf and his gf's mum i guess. he was super talkative. and so lame!! he talked abt FROG and HIS BREAKFAST!!! LIKE WHO'S INTERESTED-.- my mum was laughing to herself too=P hah!

hmmm.. tml got church!!(((((: and then got jap class!! )))))): haha! totally boring.(jap class) and mon n tue's got dance pract... haiz. i dun like it... the french dance is nice but i dun like to dance in grps! den de others wld stand by and look and STARE and worse, comment.

okay anw, ill post again, real soon i guess(:

2008-05-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

heys(:

i din go to sch today..... cos im sick. yea, flu and headache, cough too. haha, anw.... missed PE lessons, apparently shd be a good thing cos our group's performance most likely wil be postponed to next PE lesson...

ytd went to vivocity(: dad brought me to plaza to meet up with kt n don first(:
haha we went to buy tickets for: what happen(ed) in vegas;
den hang ard de place.... aiyo. so qiao, saw jorene. wen i saw her, i was in a rush to describe who is she to me, den i say all de wrong stuff. grrrr!!! haha.. den kt n don was shocked. they din dare to react to anth:P haha..

den we watched movie lah. it was nice((: very nice. (de show) =P haha.. but got quite abit of sick parts.. haha.. and i went the wrong direction wen the movie ended. supposed to go down but i wen up. ppl were staring at me-.- gosh. embarrassing!!!!!!!

after de movie we went to search for the arcade, i dun seem to hv any interest in it once i stepped in. too many ppl le!! make me very giddy.. haha, and i kept saying i wan to eat, so ended up eating at yoshinoya. haha. i bought my food first but end up finishin it de last. den don was like picking out all his long beans, den i also dumped all my vege in it:P haha.. but i gave some of my vege to him since he quite like the others. haha!

somehow later we went to de playgroud area to play de scissors paper stone(split version). haha.. i was wearing a short dress/skirt, for goodness sake i cant even balance cos i was grabbing de both openings of my dress. haha! den don played with kt, he won not becos he can do a full split! but becos kt's leg werent long enuf to stretch forward aft her split:P haha!

den walked ard in tangs... aft tht wen to find dou sha bing(: don's mum got him to buy it!

haha.. den wen up to play with water. me and kt had a race to see who reach the end first. haha! wen we finish playing, we sat on the grass, it was so pokey!!! din like it. haha.. this marks the end of ytd i guess. haha.. sadly no fotos were taken..

so nvm! haha.. this wk is the last wk of term 2. woah i realised time flies. haha... okays, shall post again soon. God bless(:

2008-05-16T18:34:00.003+08:00

hello:D

this wk's a hectic one. dance practices.... projects... gah. alot of things lah.
loads of cold war.. okay ANW.

today in sch pe had to roll abt-.- doing some egg roll. do until i very giddy. haha! den played with hoolahoops. jolene had a thing against de hoops i guess. or maybe the other way round. i was behind her, and she kept swinging it off her hand by accident. it could hv broken my back bone!!! haha.. but nvm la=D

congrats to melissa. (oni she noes why)

okay i got nth better to say alr.................................. and today's de second month(: tml's de start of third month. hope third month wont mark de end of everyth..

kayys. i gtg. ((:

2008-05-05T16:11:00.003+08:00

hello((:
im back to post!! haha.. im using my bro's com now.. so unfair lah. he got a brand new com, and mine is sooooooo old........................

i jus came back from a trip downstair:D with ruoxi and coco. apparently coco was rather stubborn. hmm... i sort of tortured coco! haha.. and ruoxi kena-ed.(torture) hmmn. but i suffered more. i had to clean coco's shit!! i nvr done it b4!!! ruoxi had to carry her, so technically she also earned credit:D moreover, prevvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv i was too busy talkin on the fone with SOMEONE. den she had to bathe coco herself, kinda poorthing lah. :D she was wet from head to toe then.

haha, downstairs:
coco came out of de elevator running. ruoxi and i was tinking, why was she so enthu?! den she loitered ard this bush thingy. den she suddenly squat n paused.................................................................................................................................... AND SHE SHITTED. OH GOSH. okay im not labelling her an irresponsible dog((: and i wen to de toilet with ruoxi, (having a hard time luring coco with the salmon treat:D)... den took tissue to clean her up while i beg for plastic bags!! den went back to the place and i had to do the clearing. wen i was done i ran away n i literally vomitted!!! it was too much for me=P

den ruoxi was laughing like siao lah. aiyo. now im back. ive pics to post, but since using my bro's com, i dun really noe how to. so another time perhaps.

good luck to those having mids! jyjyjy!
im looking forward to holidays!! but its gonna be rather bad since my results sucky.

tht's all for today~ ((:

2008-04-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

heyyo(:
im back after being mentally cum physically tortured for 2 days. haiz. ballet was not much fun as we hv been doing same stuff for abt, 3-4 months alr. and den, we had approx, 5hrs of ballet ytd. and to add on to it, i had to stand on my mini heels for 2 hrs. with occasional 1 to 2 mins break.(sitting down on steps) altho it's merely mini heels, but still.. 2 hrs is pure torture for kt too, she was wearing sch shoes..

tsktsk.. i miss you.... haiz... nvm... okays, gtg. ill blog again!~
i love u!

2008-04-09T19:21:00.002+08:00

yo!!
im back from dance, somehow without dance senior, time can pass easily. they are nice, but i duno why recently they so cold towards my dance clique. haiz... but nvm lah.
during dance did floor barre, den kimberly was lying beside me. den both of us din lengthen our legs well, den ms Chiam was like: nana and ber ber!! lengthen ur legs!!! so funny lah!! den we can be called: ber-na-na (banana)! :D

anw....
SORRY GINA!!! ~for u noe wad hpned today in class lurh. i really meant it as a joke, and dun mind my shouting/screaming;-- mood swings(:

hmmm... tml got geog test. i dun even know wad chap to study!! haha! aiyoyo xD i hope june hols approach like really soon, and fast. ESCAPE!! (: it'll be super fun! haha!!

okay, im looking forward to it!, for now i shall work hard for concentrated cas...(shuo de rong yi zuo de nan..)

will blog again! :D

2008-04-07T20:35:00.002+08:00

hello! (i din use 'yo' cos jorene said it sounded funny :P)
haha.. okay anw. today.. was jus like any other normal day ba.. as per normal, hysterical day(: with gina and yy! haha!
hmm... tml got dance=( jazz... haiz..

okay very short post for today.
will post again, soon, i hope!

i love you! alot(: --- Gina, Yingyun, Melissa, KyungTae, "Mary"(:

2008-04-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

hello...
happy belated april fools! (:

hmmn. today was rather fun... except during maths. i flunked it. =( i really failed tht paper terribly..... =( i really will try and work harder=D

tml will be sports day... hope will not rain...

nth much to post abt le...

sayonara~

2008-04-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

yo(:
im at ruoxi's house=D jus finished baking=D hopefully the cookies would turn out nice((:

hmmn. last sat,,, had ballet... kt and i used a heart shaped pillow to play volleyball=D-- in a way. haha. den she threw the pillow at me!! it hit me rite in my face!!!!!!!!!!! den i laughed till i collapsed on the floor. i used the pillow and threw it at her face 3 times=P haha! hope next sat's lesson will be as fun=D

sunday.... wen to church, met some1 at the stairways((: den ran back to my condo's lobby in order not to get some1 killed. RUOXI. asked me to wait for her and her parent. I RAN ALL THE WAY BACK, den i had to wait for 7 mins!! grrrrrrrrrr!! haha(: but thanks alot for the cheese cake u baked=D -- "IM VERY TOUCHEDDDDDDDDD. TOUCHED till i CRIED(:" altho i din really wan to cry, but i am very touched((: seriously(:

haha ANW, RUOXI's NICE(: serious(:

okay. monday, wen to pp with ruoxi... DEN. SHE HAD TO GO BACK TO TKG. DEN. some girl told her she no nid to go back wen we alr reached the sch busstop.............. qi si ren lah!!

haha. there was a WONDERFUL adventure. i saw tht girl opp the road, me and ruoxi was opposite her. den i duno which way to run. we din wan any collision. she asked me to stay in 7-11, but i wen to de cd shop instead=P den she wen to 7-11 wen she finish her business with tht girl. den she called me, "fiona u go to the busstop opp 7-11 now, will meet u der ltr" make me sound so jian bu de ren!!! haha=D (im not angry) =D

haha okay we go see the cookie done le mah(:

okay- don, kt, I UPDATED!! =D yay!(:

2008-03-28T18:24:00.002+08:00

hey(:
i returned to sch today(: after 2 days of mc! haha i have alot to catch up with):
haha.. today during math there was fire drill, we took our own sweet time getting out of the classroom, mr yap, at the back of the class, was like, "eh ur waiting to get killed isit??" haha so funny!!

drill was so tiring:( so many ppl, so crowded, made me giddy.. then we were told tht we improved 30secs... last yr we took 3mins to gather, this yr, 2mins30secs. haha... seriously, if there was a real fire, judging on the dilly dallying, i dun tink we'll make our way out=P haha(:
wen the drill ended, mr yap suddenly run into the class and was like "oh im burnt!!" haha! every1 laughed like mad! =D

during eng and hcl periods, gina, me, yy n ct were toking abt escape theme park! haha we were plannin to go for haunted house, wet and while, inverter(im so not taking tht ride), viking, the flying thingy, and the ferris wheel, and teacup. haha.. we literally planned the sitting arrangement! haha! but in the end we left it to tht actual day. hope it would be really fun(:

thanks to teochin, gina and annabel(: thanks alot alot alot(:

2008-03-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

yo! i created a blog again(:
but my schedule's really pack, so cant blog too often):
okay anw i had a HARD time finding a suitable blogskin! haha(:
i go edit the skin first(: ltr den blog!
cya.